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Random fact about me

2012-01-28T02:49:00.000+08:00

I hardly forgive,

but if I do,

I never forget.

You don't give a damn? Good, since I also don't give a damn whether you give a damn or not.

Have a nice weekend!

When Zombies Rule!

2012-01-26T14:49:00.000+08:00

I-WANT-THIS-GAME!

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dafuq? I can't embed the video here in my post!

Anyway, ever since I started playing RE4 I fell in love with the concept of the game. I didn't manage to play the previous 3 games since I never own a PS1 hehe.

I like playing RE4 or RE5 (mostly RE4) in the middle of the night until I shit in my pants after seeing all the blood and limbs flying across the screen while giving me severe nightmares and paranoia for the bedtimes that follow. AWESOME! Shooting rabid zombies/mutants/wild animals/Albert Wesker aimlessly in the middle of a deserted town fills me with adrenaline! Of course, cussing is certainly required when your head is being sewn by the over-determined chainsaw Majini. FUUU!

OMG I need to restudy the Resident Evil franchise while I still can! The story line, the history, the characters... where do I even begin!?

of Richer and Rich (from a student's perspectives)

2012-01-20T15:49:00.000+08:00

Before I proceed, let me guide some wondering souls here (if any) to the light by saying that this post is not about my next door friend called Richard.

I just had a leisure Friday read on economy. Yes, I actually read a bloody article on economy.

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I so love what this Zahid guy is saying, I had to quote his conclusion line : "Yes we are proud of national corporates recording billions if ringgit in retained earnings every year, but we paid for it with an untold amount of sweat and tears through the erosion of our spending power."

Who said having a household income ranging from RM15k to RM20k is considered as rich these days? Yes, maybe we are richer than some, but that does not mean that we are so bloody rich. Mind you, with global (and national in particular) inflation rate soars higher than Apollo 15, people of this group are having a hard time living as well, although not as hard as the ones earning lesser of course. Good cars worth more than RM100k these days. Good houses worth several times more. No, I am not being selfish or greedy or egoistic. Just like most of us, I feel like I deserve better conditions of living. If having household monthly salary already make me ponder about how difficult it is to really live, people with monthly salary of RM5k or less are even more sad.

In Penang, not counting the lousy food served at my hostel, proper meal alone (by proper I mean rice with any kind of lean protein and veges and drinks) can cost up to RM7 or RM8 per meal, and obviously I can/do not eat once a day. I am sure most of us are the same. Oh, and I am not that kind of person who can starve myself everyday just for the sake of saving money or whatnot, so yeah I am not frugal when it comes to dining. Having said that, I basically spend approximate RM20 - RM25 for food each day, sometimes more. Times that by 30 days and voila, I spend approximately RM600 (or more) on eating proper meal each month. And let us not talk about the cost of everything else like accommodation and parking fees and books, shall we? Otherwise we'll be seeing a 20,000 words of essay in this post and I am sure as hell none of us (myself included) would be willing to read it.

Fresh graduates are hit the hardest I guess. With limited job vacancies (mostly in the government sector) all thanks to the extension of retirement age to 60, and the average monthly salary of RM2.2k - RM3k, good luck living comfortably in this capitalist world. Don't dream, just because the government won't accept you does not necessarily mean that the private sectors do. The ever lucrative yet risky private sectors lagilah require stricter and stronger qualifications and most than often they search for the creme de la creme of professionals.

Indeed, I can provide no solution for this since I am not some bald economists who spend hours and charts and statistics and God knows what algorithmic calculation they might be using.

But if the condition is getting worst, one thing that I am sure of - I will not hesitate to become a part of the brain drain like Farish Noor (ugh, I think I am comparing myself with such a highly regarded figure...). Of course you wouldn't know how he is such an important asset to whoever he's working for, he's a part of the brain drain.

What is the point of being good (or the best) at what you're doing if what you receive isn't worth the exact same thing of what you achieve?

Well haters gonna hate me, but I'm just going to say it anyway. I don't really believe the notion of "you should serve your country bla bla bla..." as if it is our obligation to work for the government. Those who chose to be a part of the brain drain are slurred and considered as national heathens (to some people that I know). Then forgive me for saying that these people's intellect really has the size of a British teaspoon. If whoever that I am working for really loves to have me working for them, then provide me with proper beneficiaries.

It may sound like that I am materialistic,

but who on earth works for a living for free?

And what did you know, after reading back what I've written, I think I just stated the obvious.

p/s: No, I am not inciting you to hate anyone or any political parties. This is just my two cents. So, SCRAM political zealots.

maxis, i hate you

2012-01-19T19:06:00.004+08:00

I think I pay more than I actually get each month. That is the truth in many Malaysian contexts. It is a capitalist world after all, who bloody cares about the people? Maxis seems to be providing me with extremely crappy internet service - it has been only a week and a half since I paid my monthly payment and the connection is already beyond crappy. Ananda Krishnan, congratulations, you are indeed a fukcing fat capitalist who sells nothing but a cheap service. I live in a fukcing capital city, and the connection is worst than the time I used it in my kampung which is situated like a million kms away from civilization.

Screw you and your company.

The Anomalous "Art Attack"

2012-01-14T02:27:00.000+08:00

Okay, ever since the dawn of civilization I am an avid fan of arts. I like stealing images from the internet and put them in my gallery of stolen internet pictures. One day I would like to go to France and check out the Mona Lisa painting. Ape la yang special sangat kan sampai jadi one of the most valuable paintings of all time.

taken from 9Gag.com, which I am sure was taken from other source as well

I like paintings like the one showed here that provides us with two different images, and yet they are one.

Mind - blown

I like it when my mind is blown to pieces by looking at various cool things in life.

mangga dan kunci

2012-01-14T02:05:00.003+08:00

Kuat betul orang sekarang ni mencuri/merompak kan.

Dah ler h/p aku kena kebas tatkala aku sedang syok mandi dalam toilet depan bilik. Lepas tu dengar cerita dekat hostel CG (which is situated DALAM USM itself yang penuh dengan PAKGAD) ada bilik kena pecah masuk ikut tingkap walaupun tingkap ada grill besi. Ada cerita siap include depa pakat kena ikat lagi dalam bilik gitew. Lepas tu ada pulak dengar cerita tentang Saujana (ladies hostel USM yang nun atas bukit paling tinggi tu) di mana seorang pencuri lelaki macam spiderman masuk bilik students dekat tingkat 9 atau 10.

Ada seorang kawan ni cerita la, yang member kepada member dia nak la masuk bilik dalam pukul 4 pagi gitew, nampak la kelibat seorang lelaki yang nampak handsome dari belakang (kata dia laa) melompat keluar ikut tingkap. The very dangerous giteww... Roommate member tu siap boleh tidoq mati kot atas katil tak sedaq yang bilik dah nak licin kena samun. Haish, nak balik nanti ni aku nak kunci segala benda yang boleh dikunci dalam bilik. Tingkap aku tu kalau boleh aku nak letak serbuk lada, mana tau kalau-kalau bilik aku kena target kan. Biaq terbersin sket orang tu jatuh dari tingkap 8 haha sekali aku yang terbersin kan tatkala dok syok mengintai cafe Restu bukak ke tak kann... haish sungguh complex

Besok nak kejar flight pukul 9.55 pagi balik Sabah. Sekarang apa benda pun tak kemas lagi. Besok baru tergedik-gedik la kan nak kemas, pastu ter-miss flight macam hari tu. Sungguh fantastic...

just a thought

2012-01-12T10:47:00.001+08:00

Bukan mahu provoke, just a piece of thought yang sangat itchy dan perlu dikeluarkan dari otak ;)

Siapa cakap pihak pembangkang saja yang fanatik?

Baru-baru ni rumah Wardina dipecah masuk.

So, dia pun tweets la tentang kejadian tu.

And then tiba-tiba;

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Dia tweets tentang kejadian rompakan dalam rumah je pun.

Tiba-tiba mahu mempolitikkan hal ni pulak kan.

Mind you Wardina ni selalu cakap yang dia ni pun neutral, but selalu ja bukak page dia tengok certain sides balun dia habis-habis pasal politics. Like, wtfbbq? Dia critic sikit je pasal satu issue, dah satu dunia kata dia pro itu, pro ini.

Ni baru satu example, malas nak cari yang lain. Exam pukul 2.15pm, baik buat revision daripada menjelaskan apa yang memang dah terang. Dua-dua sama saja, yang tu cakap ni fanatik, yang ni cakap tu fanatik.

Just like a pot calling kettle black.

That is why NEVER believe an idea saying that one side is more fanatical than the another.

Kita (tak kiralah pro-pembangkang atau pro-kerajaan) duduk sedap tunjuk pandai bergaduh sesama sendiri atas issue yang kita tak sendiri pun tak tahu 100%, mereka (our "dear" leaders of both sides) seronok goyang kaki tengok kita fight for their cause yang kadang-kadang memang ntah hapa-hapa. Okay, maybe a little percentage of this somehow affects me kan, but that is the process of trying to become a more matured person. Aku tak dilahirkan dengan otak genius kebabom atau personality macam seorang yang penuh taqwa, so learning to construct a better personality happens every day. Tak perlu nak judge, tak perlu nak merendah-rendahkan intellect orang lain macam intellect sendiri sudah achieve tahap nirvana. Learn the notion of "nobody's perfect".

Takde maknanya buat statement yang satu pihak saja yang untung dalam mana-mana issue pun, politics Malaysia ni macam dah gamble. Dua-dua sides ambil risks bukan-bukan, kalau kalah cuba lagi, kalau menang lupa diri - tak kan ingat dah orang dari dua-dua belah yang sokong-menyokong ni.

Just saying.

p/s: sorry-ler bahasa sangat rojak. kejar masa, tak cukup time nak tulis elok-elok.

p/ss: kalau post ni nampak macam aku bias ala-ala pembangkang style jugak, aku tak tau nak cakap apa dah. Sumpah dah try tulis secara am. Kalau masih nak mengata jugak, aku rasa memang bukan salah aku lah kot, salah sendiri dah tu sebab suka nak cari perhatian dari orang.

Peace be upon you.

Bzzztt...

2012-01-10T18:14:00.002+08:00

I was in a study group just now.

And I felt as if 40% of what they say about this course is so alien to me o_o

That's it. Screw whatever things that are bugging me right now.

It is time to FOCUS and STUDY.

2012-01-10T00:24:00.003+08:00

Oh and that's right.

I just recently turned 22. 22 years of experience - living in various states, meeting various random people.

I couldn't care less if certain individuals wanna hate me for having different sets of world views then them.

in respond to a certain ridiculing post

2012-01-09T22:40:00.001+08:00

First of all, I am not ridiculing anyone.

Second of all, I feel there is a need to explain something to certain people.

Mind the crude language used, my first paper is 3 days away and I am tired and I could not care less how I write about this post.

Third, there will be no continuation of this post. If the particular person still wishes to write things about me, then be my guess. I shall not partake in another blog wars. It is tiring. I do not want another Spanish Inquisitions in my blog.

And to other dear readers, do not ask who. I do not want to incite hatred. Let there be peace between me and him. Tq.

*****

Maybe your post is not entirely about me, but partially, it is still about me, no? I shall not write a lengthy post. I have far greater things to do (especially for the upcoming exam) rather than ranting about poo-litics.

It gives me sheer headache to actually see how certain people judge others (me in this case) based on Facebook post alone. Do not fret, it is obvious that people are offended by recent Facebook post about a certain public figure in Malaysia. It is understandable, it is already rooted in our culture to judge others unconsciously (whether you want to believe it or not).

You know, I hope you do not have this idea of you are the only enlightened one who goes around debating on what is wrong and what is right. Do not be absurd, just because I somehow having a hard time believing DSAI is guilty due to lack of evidence DOES NOT make me a zealous worshiper of PKR. I like Saifuddin Abdullah too, so does that mean I am a BN fanatic now?

Just because I said that a person is innocent does not mean I am a hardcore fan of the mentioned person. You hardly ever knew me. Do not draw conclusions out of fallacies.

Okay, the verdict of the court decides that Anwar is innocent, and some people who are obviously unsatisfied with the verdict will say that there is lack of evidence to prove that he is actually innocent (I find this extremely contradictory - if there is lack of evidence, would anyone ever be guilty?). Let me ask you back, do you have solid evidence(s) that he is guilty instead? Well if he is indeed guilty then I will be more than happy to condemn his action as well. Seriously I will. If you do not have enough evidence and you still say he is guilty - is not that a fitnah too?

Oh and I would like to see who on earth actually regards DSAI as a godly figure. I would like to condemn that person too. Extremists exist in both political wings; either you have never met with pro government zealots (which obviously can be seen in the virtual arguments in FB political pages) or you just simply ignoring them. I do not know, you know yourself better.

People can often be deceived by the way you put forward your argument. You know, there is such thing as Critical Discourse Analysis in the field of Linguistics (yeah, it is that uuuuseless field of study that many people tend to believe). Please. Some people are overusing the words "I'm neutral" when it comes to politics. Well if you are already contemplating on which party to vote, then you can no longer be perceived as neutral - unless if you are really planning to abandon your duty as a living citizen of a sovereign country and refrain yourself from voting, then I would say that your argument is indeed valid (for real). If you are neutral, why so much hate towards the opposition? That, my friend (if we really are friends), shows that you are pro-government UNCONSCIOUSLY whether you like it or not. If you really ARE neutral, then your posts should sound more like Datin Paduka Marina Mahathir's (all salute goes to her). That is what we called as neutrality - the government is condemned just as much as the opposition. However in most of your writings, all condemnations go to those who criticize the government, hardly any on those who criticize the opposition. Yes, you do mention again and again about how you dislike both parties supporters. However, I am 100% sure that you are clever enough than your actual writings, and your writings do not really show your real intentions, do not you think so?

Oh you did mention something about 3 bombings during the assembly right? Why stop covering news at the 3rd bombings? Did you ever mention that Elizabeth Wong's car was being bombed? Does not that imply something? You said you are neutral, it is funny to see that you accidentally spaced that out. Let me guess, it is just another PKR hooligan that placed the bomb inside her car so that all blame can go to the government right? I thought so.

I do not know about other people in your friend list, but I DO criticize BOTH wings' flaws, for YOUR information. Just because I do not discuss it with YOU or in the social networking sites does not mean I do not discuss it at all. How in the world do you know what I have been doing with my peers here? Do tell, I am curious. Are you psychic?

No I am not defending myself because I terasa or because of my egoistic nature that refuses to believe the truth that you tried to tell the rest of the world, I am defending myself because the truth apparently is not represented upon myself (I do not know about other political zealouts in your list of course - but since I'm apart of your list, then I will just defend myself).

There is a corruption everywhere, even in the government - a statement so obviously supported by Marina Mahathir as well as can be seen from her blog (couldn't cite, just feel free to read her blog).

Show me that you are indeed NEUTRAL. I am not asking you to become a criticizer of political parties, but be a REAL critic.

I am NO extremist I can tell you that. I am fine befriending people of various religious or political backgrounds - and I am sure as hell that I can prove you so here in my social environment. You think I am some kind of narrow-minded conservative that despise anyone who has different sets of beliefs than me? Then you know nothing about me, and yet you dare cluster me together with a set of political extremists?

Politics is not everything to me, in fact, it is almost nothing to me. I value life more than I value politics. That you and I have in common.
What makes me DIFFERENT from you is I can befriend with any people with different sets of political beliefs. I do not use HATRED on my friends regardless of what we said on certain beliefs. Accept people for who they are, NOT because they share the same belief with you. Otherwise your view on life will be so narrowed.

FYI, mind you I also HATE extremists of both political wings. If you really have a problem with me (or any other people in your FB list, who knows) by concluding that I am just another extremist that you HATE, just remove me from your friend list. Forgive me if my FB post was crude and unjust, I am not a perfect being of God. Do note that I sometimes do not agree with your writing as well, but that does not give me any right to judge you or attack your own ideas or opinions, or HATE you. I have never posted anything like "I HATE PRO GOVERNMENTS" or anything close to it. It is funny how I actually develop some bits of happy feelings for you when you say your blog is becoming famous after being cited by so many people.

If you cherish your friends, you would never use words such as HATE to describe how you feel about your friends.

Maybe in your popular blog you feel it is okay to assemble such words against me, you have no idea how much that really hurts. But I am sure you do not really care. After all we are just two different people living in two different worlds now.

Plus, I am just another extremist in your list of extremist friends.

What gives you the right to insult me in your writing?

Your rights of freedom of speech?

Hmm I wish an apology is in order. Thus, I apologize if cause some sort of discomfort with my writing here.

Hate me or like me, I wish you all the best in your future endeavours.

I really do.

to kill a mocking bird

2012-01-04T17:15:00.000+08:00

some random cute picture i found in the internet

so effing true lol!

#notmypicture#

I wanna be forever 21!!!

2011-12-30T17:02:00.002+08:00

Not really a huge surprise, my first semester as a postgraduate student is by far the quickest semester throughout my whole university life - not in terms of the duration of time, but the feeling itself. I hardly have any recollection of events happening this semester, except for maybe one or two that I find most enjoyable. Most of the time things have been pretty dull and empty. There are less people to talk to nowadays, hence the lack of adventurous travels and sightseeing around Penang (and beyond), and hence my obvious idleness from blogging. Plus, there are literally no drama at all in class, so there's nothing to talk about anyway.

I really hope that for the next semester I'll be able to get a single room at Bakti or wherever the administration decides to throw me in (preferably in USM itself). Privacy really gives me inspiration and motivation. Although I enjoy the company of being with some people, but sometimes, being alone is an utter bliss especially when I am studying. I really cannot concentrate studying at the presence of at least one person. It's really not the fault of the people's existence, it's probably me - I can't really put myself staring at books when other people is around since the urge to open my mouth and start blabbering all day like a snapped baboon is really hard to resist.

Oh my god I have less than 6 hours to go and tell people I'm forever 21. 21 21 21 21 21 21 21 fuuuuu timeee!!!

I don't treat people I hate with rosy words

2011-12-29T22:09:00.002+08:00

Forgiveness. Yeah right, kiss my ass.

What's the point of forgiving someone who'll definitely going to repeat the exact same fucking misdeeds every single time we forgive them?

Yeah I'm exploding with anger by yer stupid attitudes ye douchebags!

How does it feel like to receive a set of horrible results for yer big exam? Ye must be really stupid back then, and by judging yer ignorance towards yer puny little achievement I still think ye are really stupid still.

Next time, don't ever think so highly of ye self. I won't mind be kind to people of lower intellect, but I won't hold my twisted tongue against stupid NASTY people like ye-self. Ye are nothing but a DISGRACE to me. If I can just snap my fingers and zap ye into the oblivion I would certainly do that a gazillion light years ago. Yeah, I've been nice - nice enough to actually talk to ye. Apparently ye gave me shit, especially when nobody's around. Oooh ye cried for ye stupidity back then, but apparently ye are still acting like a total brainiac in which ye are most definitely not. Ye really are a fucking hypocritical dickhead. When I start working in the near future and when I have a home of my own, I will coldly ignore ye like my kitchen's red thrash can since ye are actually an embodiment of thrash.

Oh and yer body smell like one too.

These words wouldn't have been uttered if ye at least be a little bit more respectful.

I really wish ye would die anytime soon.

While everyone weeps over yer dead body, I'll take a pissing cat and put over yer dead body.

Ye are a rotten person when ye are living, and I'm spiritually lax myself, but I'm hoping that ye are going to rot in Hell as well.

Oh wait, I am always the nasty one and ye are the most angelic creature ever crawled on Earth.

Sure, go get backups, cower behind other peoples' sympathies with yer bloody stupid acts.

I'll ignore them just the same.

Don't believe me?

Try me.

Brain fart

2011-11-19T20:47:00.001+08:00

Finally, after weeks of ~~cussing~~ trying to access to my own blog, I finally made it to the home page.

As expected I can ace my linguistics paper, especially in Phonetics and Phonology, if I put enough effort in exploring new concepts and embrace the theory of generative phonology since I am quite a traditionalist when it comes to Linguistics. The reason behind that is simple, structuralist movement in Linguistics is much easier than the generative movement.

.....

And as I browsed multiple websites while writing this post, I have completely forgotten the reason behind me wanting to write here in the first place LOL.

So off I go now.

Random Quote

2011-10-26T21:40:00.002+08:00

Checking your Myspace these days is like checking your underwear after a fart. There is most likely nothing new and if there is, it is probably sh*t.

LOWLZZ!

So true!

Unexpectedly I hate my life right now lol

2011-10-17T19:03:00.003+08:00

I've been doing Masters for almost 2 months and only now I realize that it feels lonely doing Masters right now.

Most friends that I had before in my undergraduate life will eventually become distant friends, like those in the days of early years of university life. This is very depressing! Well don't give me that friends-don't-get-you-anywhere-in-job kind of notion. Of course I know the concept of not depending on anybody but myself when it comes to climbing the ladder of success (in career), but what about my social life? Nay, I'm not some random socialite nutcase who rabidly insist in partying every single hour of a day. Sometimes I just want to hang out with people that I feel comfortable to hang out with. Don't expect me to go ask my 50 year old boss to go bowling on Saturday night, just DON'T.

Being alone in a place like this is good for my soul.

Being alone in a place where I am now is slowly driving me insane.

Of course there are few good ol' friends that are still around, however there's nobody but one or two are doing Linguistics and I barely know anyone in my class of 50 people which most of them consists of part time students who are working somewhere across the northern region. The late maturity of my soul deters me from hanging out with those people for reasons unknown (obviously I'm a neurotic sociophobic who happens to carry a high concentration of emo-ness in my soul) and thus explains why I only have less than 5 people in my class (plus the lecturer you know! fuyo) that I can converse with for more than half a minute. I either fake a supreme large cheesy smile or scurry to the toilet when a situation where I have to meet my other random classmates takes place.

A test about Social Research Methods is going to take place tomorrow. I am feeling slightly dizzy and sleepy. Just great, absolutely great.

3As of Phonetic's Branches

2011-10-05T11:33:00.001+08:00

I'm having a cold - runny nose and coughing frantically are the worst type of combination of illness ever!

and to think that later at 4pm I'll be having a Phonetics/Phonology test doesn't make my day any more of a blessing. And you know how your eyes tend to get sore when you sniff your nose too hard and too frequently, that's what I am feeling right now - as if somehow my mucus glands are connected to my tear glands and God help me that is not ground breaking freakish ability that I am having, it is annoying! Right now I'm having a drinking marathon (obviously not alcohol). Every few minutes I'll be drinking lots and lots of water while having to make a run to the loo every 15 minutes. It is pure agony!

I've finished studying everything there is to study last night, and I think I can remember 85% of what I've read (the other 15% is the Source and Filter Model of Speech Production, which is actually quite understandable). There's really no energy left in me to really dwell on those figures and whatever things that the book is showing. And the lack of oxygen in my brain - due to the excessive mucus that my submucosal glands is producing - is really giving me a spin in the head and I fear all those knowledge I've accumulated (through long harsh struggle with procrastination) will eventually slip off from my head somehow...

*me gasp!*

I can't really take some medications just yet. Otherwise I'll be oozing some saliva when I zonk off in the hall while answering the test later.

Of Tales Created in September

2011-09-30T23:52:00.003+08:00

After stacks of days of drifting away from reality (and le blog), writing something fanciful here seems agonizingly difficult. I once said that I'll post up every bits of tales that happened in September in my blog before this month ends and as I ~~accidentally~~ fatefully glanced at the tiny weeny clock at the bottom of my laptop screen I was like, HOLY RAVIOLI it is 2 hours left before October! lol

Anyhow (writing quickly), this September has been a significant month for me as some of the rarest events of my life were created along the memory lane - my older sister got married on the 1st September, the starting of my life as an MA student in USM (which I won't be writing about) as well as my long yearned undergraduate graduation.

Kak Pa finally tied the knot

These are the pictures that I took right before the wedding. For some reasons unknown to even me, my laptop does not store the photos taken DURING the wedding itself, which basically is what everybody wants to see in the first place.

T___T

*smacks head on wall*

below are some of the photos of our hantaran taken a night before. I weely weeeellyy like the colour theme of our hantaran!

Some stuff...

with shoes and stuff...

and more stuff...

and below are some of the photos taken from outside of our house - the front porch and the guests' tent. Other pictures that were taken from other angles are blur and shaky (blame self) ~~and myself in pyjamas are in them~~ and thus the photos are unsuitable for this blog usage, harap maklum.

And finally this is the wedding altar/pelamin for the then-groom and bride. Mum did a great job planning all these things months prior to the wedding.

a side photo shot of the pelamin.

EHH???... motif letak gambar sendiri blom mandi atas pelamin instead of gambar pengantin...???

Sumpah nak bagi penampar kan? haha
So before anything happens to my pretty face (vomits in bucket), I'll post here the picture of the then-bride and groom (:

Syifa Zainal Azhar and Abang Khairul Anam Mansor.
Congratulations and,
Semoga Bahagia Hingga ke Anak Cucu
(dan cicit dan beyond~ Ameeeeennn)

Here is a more recent photo of them taken at Olomouc Republic of Czech ~~which I stole from my brother-in-law's album photo ngehehe~~~

Pictures of couples walking down a lane have always give me shrills of joy and contentment.

Life as an MA student

is pretty much the same as my life before lol.
though I'm reading quite a lot lately - only because I have a Phonetics/Phonology test next week. *whines*

Some filler photos (not much posted here, only three) taken throughout my days here;

The trio - as always :)

with Farah Ain

Raith ~~banyak songeh~~, moi, and anak-anak mami yg suka bwk mai gossip na lol

All the other photos are either in somebody else's Blackberry or somewhere hidden deep in my jungle of picture folders. It's only been three weeks, so I can't really describe well on my life right now. I guess that'll have to wait till later ;)

Moi Graduate!

There are many of photos of me taken during graduation, but one picture stands up more than any other picture - me in full academic regalia with Mum and Dad.

Congratulations Syahmi
*throw confetti*

It was very unfortunate that only my parents could come that day since the rest of my family members were busy with something else - KakPa's off to Europe, Aja's at KL butting her way through exam week and lil brother's at home preparing for PMR. But that's okay, I still have one more graduation ceremony though, and I do wish they could all come that day.

If everything goes well, we'll be going to Europe in 2013 for my sister's graduation ceremony pulak.

Anyway, I'd really like to personally thank to those who congratulate me that day. They mean a lot, and I do mean a lot, and I wish you all the best in whatever endeavours you might encounter along the way you're creating in the whatever path you might choose.

And so, another chapters of my life have come to a close.
It's 11.43 pm Friday 30th September 2011,
I have kept my promise,
to at least update my blog about events
though not all but some
that took place in September.

And so, another chapters of my life have come to a close, and I can finally sleep tonight at midnight,
at ease.

Oh and p/s: Baju laundry sudah jumpa! :D

Against me right now is pure LUCK

2011-09-28T09:11:00.002+08:00

I really really wanted to update my blog for the month of September yesterday. This month is full of happy moments that I'd like to boast around. But alas, those enthusiasms were short-lived as the laundry lady lost a quarter of my favourite clothes somewhere. I demand compensation no matter what!

Having steaming out that short contentment, I guess this blog will have to wait... again.

T___T

Pre-Grads Anxiety

2011-09-23T12:15:00.000+08:00

Thinking 'bout graduation really gives me goosebumps.

I want that one short moment (of me being up the stage and take the scroll) to go smoothly. That 5 seconds of moment should be one of the most significant day of my life, so hopefully nothing bad should happen by then.

I let my anxiety disorder gets the best of me.

I am anxious of every single minute detail that I can think of - I fear at the mental sight that I might trip over my robe and fall graciously like a fat durian in front of thousands of people that might attend, I fear that my hat will fall when I'm trying to walk so ever cool-y on stage without me even realizing it, I fear that there might be some technical glitches when my name is supposed to be called and in the end I might have to go scurry and take the scroll in a very perplexed manner like a confused chimpanzee (this one is the mother of all fear).

*me gasp!*

this feeling of nervousness for that 5 seconds of scroll-taking event is worst than all of my stage frights combined! okay, this is excessively exaggerated, but still!

Oh dear, I hope all turns out well.

If not someone innocent better be prepared to feel the wrath of my dark side!

*cue Star Wars theme song*

~~No, I'm serious.~~ Oh just kidding~ teehee

Muse

2011-09-20T09:51:00.003+08:00

I can't believe I am slouching around during this time of my life. That is frustrating.

Somehow I just need to stand up straight and concentrate maximum brain firepower to studying.

Post.

I just need to be reminded of how the old Syahmi once yearn of excelling in MA.

In order for me to gain my muse again, I really need to listen and look back to my ancient hopes and dreams from moments past.

I cannot laze around.

My younger self had big dreams.

So, I shall not disappoint the very person who believe I can really succeed in life.

Me.

2011-09-19T17:26:00.001+08:00

I am already a Master's student,

but I sooo DOESN'T look like one.

lol

p/s: went to have a tour at one of Penang's cultural heritage site - Chulia Heritage Hotel.

Rungutan. LAGI

2011-09-17T01:58:00.001+08:00

Okey, hostel Restu takdak air, AGAIN.

Fine, hari tu time air takdak siang-siang aku boleh tahan lagi la. Boleh tahan? Sumpah mofo. Time rasa nak pegi toilet je aku bley berlari-lari anak manja turun bukit 200 meter pergi hostel Tekun kan. Memang sore loser gile.

Ni malam-malam pukul 1.30 pagi takdak air pulak memang terasa nak mencarut. Bukan nak bagi notice ke hape ke, at least boleh la aku heret baldi pegi toilet takung air siap-siap. Ape, diorang expect kami semua nak jalan malam-malam pergi Tekun ambek air? Sumpah gila. Gigi belom gosok, mandi pun belom. Apa tayammum-tayammum? Nak pegi kutip debu kat mana?

Boleh gila aku malam-malam ni.
GILAAAAAA!

Mumble mumble mumble

2011-09-08T16:44:00.002+08:00

RANTSSSSSS!!!!!

mumble... mumble...

A few days back, the thought of being a Master's student in Master of Arts in Linguistics and English Language Studies made me especially elated. But that feeling was short-lived thanks to those unprofessional people in charge in who had to handle their new post-graduate students.

My heart boiled when I had to go through my first few days here under the lousy administration in USM. YOU SUCKS!! *pointing at USM administration* Guess how long I had to wait and queue in the stuffy E41 hall during my post-graduate registration a couple of days back? 7 HOURS straight! I went there at about 9am and I went out at about 4.30pm WITHOUT completing the whole process of registration. I had to go on the second day to complete my registration. My passport took a thousand times less time than this! Not only that, at one point during the registration, I queued in a line which me and the rest of us post-graduates thought would be the line for the submission of payment receipt for almost 2 hours and only to be told later that the line is for PAYMENTS only. You bet there were a tremendous amount of uproars in the hall due to this utter idiocy. It's ridiculous - why couldn't we just pay and take the receipt at the same counter? Why must they herded us like cattle from one counter to another?

Oh yeah another crazy and stupid thing happened during my registration. Since I accidentally left some of my documents in my new hostel at Restu (in case you didn't know, Restu is located approximately half a mile up the hill through the 30 degrees steep road from the RST gate). And so I drove myself from E41 to the gate, and only to be blocked later by a fat arsed Pak Guard at the gate. That day was basically the registration day for the new undergraduates as well so I understood if all the pakgads and makgads were busy pretending to be busy everywhere. But one thing that pisses me off was when I told the pakgad that I needed to hurry to my room in Restu to take my documents and continue registering before 1 o'clock (at this time it was 12.30pm) due to the forever cursed lunch hour, he basically said "okay, budak Masters bawak kereta ke sana" while pointing his finger towards the freeway, indicating that I should just buzz off and drive away as he didn't believe that I am a Master's student in USM. I was like, MOTHER FUCKING BASTARD!!! I so did not deserve this kind of treatment especially from an old fucking fag who didn't even even manage to complete his school years back in the 1980s. You're just a PAKGAD, stop acting like you own a PhD in your pocket. There's a fine line between being a strict stern person and being an utter asshole. Your stupidity proves that you are an asshole.

So I had to park my car in front of a nearby 7/11 store which is located approximately 100 meters from the gate and I rushed like a nutcase up the hill and went straight into my room at the eighth floor and scurried down the hill towards my car and drove myself to E41.

Oh yeah and I didn't even manage to eat a thing from the moment I woke up until the 5 pm due to the fear of people cutting my line. Thank you USM for this wonderful experience. Can I vomit now?

Jabatan Keselamatan USM is full of shits. I have my car here, and of course like everyone else with a car I would like to have one of those car stickers as well. Guess what this big fat ugly guy told me and Alif when we went there yesterday, "Oh kami tak bagi sticker kat budak-budak Masters 1st Year." Are you kidding me? If I wish to complete my MA in just a year, are you basically saying that I am doomed to never ever getting a car sticker? Your brain is definitely in you butt. This is a rule that I have never ever heard before. Oh yeah USM's JK is a great law-enforcer. In one semester the rule can be ABC and the next semester they decided that the rule is DEF-lah WITHOUT ever having to inform the students in the first place. During my 3rd year as an undergraduate, they used to tell me that they gave away they car stickers primarily to the POST-GRADUATE students and yesterday he was telling me that they gave away car stickers primarily to the 3rd year UNDERGRADUATES. My FOOT. I am praying hard that your head will explode due to constant exposure to solar flare.

Hostel's administration is another pain in the arse. I went there to Tekun's Accomodation Unit to ask whether I can stay for one night when I first arrived in USM. One makcik told me that I can't stay there since the hostel is FULL due to new undergraduates. Then Alif told that bitch "Bukan budak degree baru masuk 2 atau 3 hari lagi ka?" Then the stupid baboon became so perplexed and confused she decided to flee and get another makcik staff, which is just equally stupid as the first one. After dealing with 2 very stupid makciks for half an hour, one makcik which has the face of a swollen monkey who just woke up from sleep told me that they don't have the authority to give me permission to stay in Tekun and told me to go to UPPU instead. What nonsense. I met with one of Tekun's MPD earlier and asked her whether Tekun can give me a place to stay for ONE NIGHT and she said OF COURSE TEKUN CAN. I guess those makciks are just a bunch of donkeys who did not wish to prepare any paperwork for my stay in Tekun.

After grueling my way in UPPU, finally they gave me and Alif a place to stay in Restu. Let me tell you this, Restu's Housing Unit's staff are complete angel - unlike those demons from the 7th Hell who linger in Tekun's office doing nothing all day. Mdm Z from Restu was really a blessing. From what appeared to be an approval to stay for one night became an approval to stay for my entire study! God Bless thee Mdm Z.

Barring those 1% of nice and diligent people that I've met, all of their stuff and the event were ridiculously unorganized.

You know why USM is considered as an APEX university? It's because of the students, and it's definitely not because of this middle-aged administration! Don't you perasanlah staff that you are the best. You're just sharing OUR spotlight. Come to think of it, I kinda regret to have declined the offer to UM.

p/s: wrote everything down in a few minutes. an apology is in order if certain points are incomprehensible due to me being lethargic at this time of the day. I don't really have the time to read what I wrote, I just unload everything in one go

Tonight's an empty one

2011-08-19T00:33:00.000+08:00

Just a random thought.

Se-best² mana pun modern Korean series sekarang ni, tetap tak boleh tanding series like Winter Sonata, Autumn in My Heart, Full House, Stairways to Heaven dan series lain yang sewaktu dengannya.

Cerita² Korea yang lepas memang boleh buat aku meleleh air mata. Sekarang punya cerita memang buat naik darah - jalan cerita ntah hapa² and actors/actresses la ni sungguh kayu. Sungguh bajet hot diorang semua sekarang ni. Nasib baik muka diorang cute walaupun nampak sangat artificial (thanks to plastic surgery), and fashion choice diorang pun style tahap aku sendiri pun naik dengki - so takde la aku nak condemn 100%.

But it would be nice to see some originality again in modern Korean series.

Homme - I Smile Because I'm a Guy

2011-08-16T00:12:00.008+08:00

Came across this song at KBS earlier. It took me a while Googling this song since it was in Korean. You have no idea what God forsaken words I've typed in Google before coming across the English name of the song lol.

>> Link <<

(dang it, why can't I embed the video here? usually can what!!)
So I'll just post up Homme's photo here to make up for ~~my inability to figure this out~~ the current screwed-ness of blogspot.

Enjoy the STATIC awesomeness of Homme!
p/s: to those fundamentalists out there, this is the least gay-ish Homme poster I've found in Google. I've tried... lol

love the beat - which is kinda odd for a person of my taste. But the video is kinda funny though. Dah bertumbuk sakan sepanjang video, tapi in the end look nice and pretty sambil tergelak manja sesama sendiri atas sebab yang aku tak dapat nak kenal pasti haha. well this is Korea you ols~

~~Screw 2PM~~ whoops sorry haters~

OMG finally catching myself some Korean fever!

strawberry shortcake. oh so fruity!

2011-08-11T17:00:00.001+08:00

Having a (rather) short name is quite convenient especially when filling up forms. When it comes to creating usernames in the internet, then it no longer becomes a blessing.

Okay, some people they have two or three (or even more) words for their names. I only have one - Syahmi. Most of the time they can just register a username using their full first name, which is kinda a big deal to me - I like using my name as usernames (or emails) due to my lack of interest in memorizing whatever God forsaken bizarre names I usually come up with. Usually some other people have already taken up "Syahmi" as their usernames, which was quite surprising to me since I thought my name was unusually uncommon among people lol

I often take it with great displeasure when trying to figure out some cool fancy names as my usernames. Some people they didn't really think when coming up with names and they all ended up creating usernames like naruto1985 or farhanluvicepop and I was always like, really? I certainly wouldn't want to have usernames/emails like syahmiblueberry or syahmi1989. They sound so fruity and cliche haha. I remember using Yahoo! email that looks like this : amie_naomi_yummy@yahoo.com which is ~~still still active~~ now no longer used. I have no idea what possessed me when coming up with that email, but rest assured that I am using my hotmail on various accounts.

next semester issue

2011-08-10T13:14:00.002+08:00

i don't even have to take on any dissertation yet - something that i'm planning to do somewhere in the middle of next year. but of course i won't go to usm unprepared. i've drafted out some topics which i am deeply fascinated with which primarily focus on the area of critical discourse analysis and anthropological linguistics (the latter one is preferable). but then again, i haven't finalized everything so i might change my mind and do something else. linguistics is a huge field of study. i'm sure i'll decide on something solid later on.

having said that, i am going to be incredibly idle when the upcoming semester starts. this time, i've registered myself for 2 subjects only - each subject takes 3 hours per day starting from 5pm to 8pm. that means i will only be having 2 days of academic session out of 7 days per week! gosh, i've never been this free before in my life as a student. being this free is a privileged of course, but i think it is also a form of a curse. i mean, there will be more time for me to go out and enjoy myself, but that means the depletion rate of my money will increase significantly by 300% (random calculation lol).

moi drafting out my travel plans for 2011 at home to fuel my crave for future adventures later in usm is an ominous omen, a sign that i'll be spending a lot of moolah next semester. last minute planning isn't really my blessing - i sucks in math, so i need to go through my expenditure budget beforehand. unless the rate of inflation of everything in world suddenly soars by a gazillion percent, then i usually don't have any problem with early planning.

(some) plans laid out;

am going to putrajaya for acab's convocation ceremony on 8th of october.

will travel to singapore somewhere around christmas along with saki and some other people.

genting and kl (and some other events) are still in planning.

maybe i should consider working part time as whatever that i find interesting next semester (an almost impossible task since i am deeply picky when it comes to jobs, let alone part time jobs). who knows, i might like killing some time working (most importantly earn some cash) than spending an eternity in the library pretending to look like a smart nerd, or cussing "asshole" all day long in front of my laptop after chris redfiel is being ravaged by a hoard of flesh-eating zombies in the professional-mode resident evil 5 game lol.

imagine,

part-time wages + scholarship funds (iAllah) + fama allowances = $$$

oh oh oh

i've lost count. i see nothing but money. lots and lots of money.

2011-08-09T09:32:00.000+08:00

Oh no!

Why is my dashboard suddenly changed back into the old form after I've been using the new form of dashboard since months ago?

What happened to my then-new/cool dashboard?

My dashboard now looks ancient. I tell you, ancient!

I feel ancient.

Senyum siket :B

2011-08-06T15:39:00.001+08:00

Today at 11pm was my appointment with one of the best dentists in Malaysia which is Dr Roland Chia (promote kejap haha).

My braces have been tightened up yet once again for the millionth of time, and yang super.marvellous.fantastico.slash awesomeness-nyer is today is in the middle of the month of Ramadhan. Yer, Life is very very kejam

Ape yang big deal nyer?

Yang never pakai braces sila shadap.

Once the braces have been tightened up, "bracesmen", like moi, will have this grave ill-fated destiny of having to endure eating medium-hard food with pure agony.

Yeah you can complain and whine about how your tooth is aching and how you can't eat and everything. Imagine having a whole set of upper teeth to ache and berdenyut-denyut all the time. (hambek ko broken English haha)

Pengsan aku minggu ni makan nestum haha

OMGLOL!

2011-08-05T23:57:00.001+08:00

Exactly what I was doing when I viewed the photo.

I thought I was looking in the mirror lol.

World statistic says that

2011-08-04T22:03:00.000+08:00

LOL

2011-08-04T17:10:00.002+08:00

Why is the commercial taking too long? Rage!

Broadband is slow again (as always). Rage!

USM Housing Unit still hasn't replied my request for room reservation yet. Rage!

"The Accidental Couple" Korean Series has ended today. Rage!

I can't find my Kursus Kahwin certificate! Rampage!

ROAR!

This time of the day is really not good for tripping me off.

I am exceptionally emo at 4pm onwards lol.

NAK MAKAN!

2011-08-03T09:59:00.002+08:00

Isn't it cool if the world we live in is just like in Harry Potter?

There are wizards and muggles - of course I'd like to be wizards haha.
I bet nobody who watches Harry Potter wishes to be a muggle at the end of the day.

p/s: aku masih belum lagi tengok Harry Potter final episode tu. sangat noob kan?

Anyone has any idea?

2011-08-02T10:23:00.004+08:00

Okey, now that everything with IPS USM is getting easier to organize, now I'm having a difficult time with scholarship-based websites for my Masters. This is my first time to ever try to apply for scholarships and oh my Gucci all these protocols and terms and conditions are incredibly irritating.

MARA doesn't provide scholarships for my course - which is just so ~~biased~~ great, JPA only prioritizes those who graduated magna cum laude and therefore I've lost all hope of ever getting any aid from them, and I'm having a great amount difficulty with uploading my PDF files into MyBrain15 websites - the only viable source for me so far.

This is so frustrating!

HEEYAAAHH!!

*ninja-kick*

Doing Masters in Malaysia ain't that cheap you know, even more so if you're doing a mixed-mode program ~~fffuuu~~.

So, anyone knows of any other scholarships in existence in Malaysia?

Receiving a huge amount of money from parents at my age is really frustrating, and awkward too lol.

If not, I'll have to seek for loans and most likely that would be PTPTipu (OMGSTFU!) - which has already denied my application once due to me being unqualified to receive their help lol.
If that doesn't go well too, then I guess I'll just have to live my Masters' life with nothing but the feeling of shame and embarrassment. *exaggerate betul haha*

2011-08-01T13:24:00.002+08:00

Okay I'm content with almost everything I see on Campusonline USM but one,

Why the heck are they still using my of super duper fugly undergraduate photo for the last 3 years as the profile picture in my postgraduate online page? Muka masam, nampak tu jerawat, rambot skema. Grrr..

R A G E!!!

Ha ha

Come to think of it,
would they still be using this photo on my future student card? Oh oh oh *shivers frantically*

2011-07-31T22:05:00.005+08:00

Salam Ramadan Al-Mubarak.

May we all be charitable and be blessed in this holy month.

I welcome thee o' Ramadan with an open heart.

Peace to all.

The dark side clouds all

2011-07-31T18:53:00.002+08:00

Palpatine from Star Wars?

Super cool.

Shooting lightning bolts from his fingertips when he is angry

looks so much fun!

Of woodland realms

2011-07-31T12:37:00.009+08:00

Candy Polgar

Alone by myself

the trees bend to caress me

the shade hugs my heart.

Trees are beings of magnificence in nature.

They'll live old, and they'll live tall.

I would love to sit under the tree in the picture above all by myself.

It's quite and peaceful - two lamest, but highly accurate adjectives that I can come up with right now.

It would be an amazing place to be to unwind myself from the strains and stress of living in a fast-paced capitalist world - and just simply contemplating about everything under a quiet old tree.

That, is a beautiful piece of an imagination.

One of the wonders of the universe

2011-07-31T10:27:00.003+08:00

Time nak wish FB friend yang.aku.langsung.tak.kenal ni punya birthday (jarang aku buat benda ni, tapi mood hari agak baik), aku ternampak ni kat page dia.

Aku pun tak tau,

macam mana dia boleh ter-locked dari account dia sendiri.

HAHA

Impian

2011-07-30T21:00:00.005+08:00

Semua orang ada impian besar time kecik² dulu bila orang tanya tentang future career. I had mine (I still hold to some dreams though), which were quite wicked too. So here I'll list down all the dreams that I once have dreamed of;

Engineer
Architect
Interior Designer
Dengan tertulisnya C pada paper Add Math SPM, maka terkuburlah impian² ni semua

Pilot
Tapi aku gayat haha

Ambassador
This is still a living dream. Maybe I'll pursue it after Masters, who knows.

~~Vegetarian~~ Veterinarian
Environmentalist
Oh noble-nyer, tapi ni la impian² yang tak direstui oleh keluarga haha

These, my fellow readers, are the roads that are not taken.
Although it would be incredibly fanciful to dream about all ifs,
but Life would be more meaningful if you focus on what is now.
Although it's tough, but I'll have to learn to
believe in myself
for
no else would.

Dream of the distant past

2011-07-30T12:02:00.004+08:00

I wish I can play the grand piano like a star pianist.
and concert my own music in New York Philharmonic Orchestra.

Now that is some dream.

Of Earth's marvel and wonder

2011-07-29T12:22:00.000+08:00

I personally love cheese - almost every kind of cheese.

To me, cheese is one of man's greatest food inventions of all time, if not THE greatest.

I don't know if I can survive on Earth without eating cheese.

But spare me some blue cheese, I heard it's moldy and smells bad.

shopping bug is here

2011-07-28T22:03:00.004+08:00

Raya dah dekat, so it's almost time untuk pergi menggadai duit for raya outfits nyiahaha.

As usual-lah, while waiting for sales, which is really an excuse (those who know me well I don't really buy things on sale hehe), I did some browsing online on Korean summer outfits.

This year I'll mainly focus on multi-functional semi-formal attires - you can simply put them on practically any time these days without looking extremely overdressed. The Koreans did it, why can't us Malaysians kan?

Plus, right after raya kena pulak pergi register for Masters. I am planning to wear something a bit more professional during my times as a post-graduate student. Nak lah pulak pakai baju dengan segala pattern macam diva masuk kelas kan haha.

So far ada dua outfits that caught my attention lah, yang lain either tak de size ataupun harga mak bapok mahal - MYR 300++ per piece. Ko ingat aku anak Sultan? Haha

Summer Korea long-sleeve T-shirt

Lapel long-sleeve shirt

Oh oh oh gatalnya tangan aku nak main klik segala baju yang aku nampak online.
Nak pergi tanam lah duit 100 hinggit blakang rumah, mana tau besok lusa tumbuh sejuta kan?
Memang bengang la kalau makcik depan rumah nampak aku tanam pastu dia pergi rembat duit aku kan hahaha

Sudah-sudah la tu mengarut Syahmi oi.
(-.-)

Reminiscing the good old days

2011-07-28T00:01:00.007+08:00

Ada few things tabiat dari kecik yang kadang-kadang aku teringat aku buat. Saja nak post, maklumlah, materials cenggini la yang sepatutnya disumbat dalam blog kan - walaupun maruah tergadai hahaha kelezzzz gitu.

(tetibe terhingin nak tulis ala-ala gedik manja mintak penampar kan)

Tido dengan bantal peluk

Sumpah tak nyenyak tido malam kalau takde bantal peluk. Biarlah bau cam haram pon, lagi ada bau lagi ada oomph haha eeww geli gituu.

Berlakon

Dengan orang ke, dengan diri-sendiri ke aku bedal je berlakon. Tak sangkalah pulak in the end skarang ni aku dah macam diva wannabe kan.

Buat "rumah" dalam rumah

Dengan kata lain yang agak kurang kadar kesopanannya - buat semak dalam rumah ngehehe. Aku sangat suka bawak lari kain selimut atau kain sarong/pelikat parents aku keliling rumah buat atap "rumah" permainan aku guna kerusi atau meja, sampai ade sehari tu aku siap tertido lagi noks dalam tu. Teringat time-time dulu, tapi nak la pulak aku main rumah-rumah kan, karang terjojol keluar kaki aku dari kerusi kan.

Cakap depan kipas

Naik darah gedik menyampah lagi menggedikkan aku bila aku dengar suara aku macam robot bila aku dok terbongkok bercakap depan kipas. Oush syok!

Ada setengah tu tabiat melekat sampai ke skarang ni ha. Nenek atuk aku pon kadang-kadang terkezot ha tengok aku dengan habit lama. Contoh utama lah kan;

Belit badan dengan kain selimut

Hahaha ni syok sangat. Aku suka belit/sarung/lilit badan aku dengan kain selimut anywhere and anytime dalam rumah. Ntah kenape aku suke. Rasa sangat secure dalam kain selimut. Rasa sangat confident dengan diri aku kalau aku berbungkus dalam kain selimut. Kalau boleh aku pakai selimut pergi kelas, sumpah dapat A kot semua paper aku hahaha. Gila tak normal.

Tak suka gantung kaki atas katil

Ni penyakit mental satu lagi yang aku ada. Ada tak korang selalu rasa tiap kali nak tidor atas katil je korang mesti tak bagi kaki atau tangan korang tergantung dari sisi katil? Kalau boleh tangan atau kaki mesti atas katil jugak sebab korang rasa nanti ada monster yang akan grab kaki atau tangan korang. Tak pernah rasa? Well, aku rasa aku lah yang gila kot hahaha.

So, I guess that's all for tonight. Mengantok sangatlah noks haha

Adieu~!

2011 - Norway Attack

2011-07-24T13:56:00.004+08:00

After all these years, the West have heavily bombarded Islam with reference to terrorism and violence, and much to my surprise, it works. I am indeed bedazzled by an astronomical number of ignorant people on planet Earth despite their self-proclaimed high intellect and virtuosity.

I am sure that many of us have heard of the recent 2011 Norway attack.

Here are some links to a few good reads.

Al-Jazeera

2011 Norway Attack

Anders Behring Breivik - the perpetrator

In light of recent event, I still look at some Christians that I know with great respect.

I do not want to become like the people before me who have maliciously associated my own faith with violence.

There is a growing number of Muslims, and non-Muslims alike, who recently go viral online in coining words like Christian extremist and I, honest to my God, do not wish to be a part of that growing number. I know how it feels like when the very faith that you love is being despicably condemned by some ignorant fools who think they know better than those who actually practice their religion right.

It is FUN, isn't it, when you keep associating my religion with violence and extremism? Not so fun now right when other people are associating your religion with these remarks?

My point is, terrorism knows no religion.

I hope any sane human would be able to comprehend this very easy concept.

Soalan² dari kampung

2011-07-22T23:27:00.003+08:00

Balik kampung melawat relatives memang tak sah la kan kalau cucu² ~~glamorous~~ macam aku ni tak kena gang-bang oleh para nenek serta mak bapak sedara dengan soalan yang segala bagai. Saja je malam ni gatal pinggul nak share soalan² yang selalu ditujukan kepada aku tanpa mengira hangen aku pada ketika itu.

Ni list soalan² atau statement² yang aku sangat suka ditanya. Seyes punggung aku boleh mengembang sampai meletop kot kalau ditanya banyak² haha

- "Adek neh tingkatan berapa?"

Oush, aku sangat suka bila orang ingat aku masih lagi di alam remaja persekolahan. Syok jadi lupa diri kejap seminit dua.

- "Amey dah makin berisi lah"

Favourite statement nenek aka Umi aku every time jumpa dia. (sungguhpun jisim berat badan aku langsung tak naik² haha) Jaga hati sungguh nenek aku.

- "Sambung Masters? Wow baguihnye!"

Well~ what can I do? haha tersembor kahak halkum aku

Tu adalah antara soalan yang aku memang tak jemu² dengar.

And of course as usual-lah, sometimes mesti ada je soalan² atau statement² yang buat aku kurang senang atau menyampes tahap dewa Guanyin.

bila dah tau umo sebenar aku, mulalah menggedik tanya aku,

- "Ha, bila nak kawen?"

Ntah la, bila aku dah ready delete game Pokemon dari laptop aku kot. Buat apa nak bgtau ko?

- "Oh, belajar bahasa, Bila nak start mengajar?/Jadi cikgu la ni?"

Memang soalan cepumas dimana hadiahnya adalah penampar.

- "Rindunya kat Amey. Bakpo dok call ore langsung?"

Ni memang soalan yang aku sangat suka menjawab haha. Aku ni memang cucu yang sangat mithali (terjojol mata korang baca haha), once in a while aku call jugak nenek atau atuk aku. Tapi time aku call diorang tu la mula diorang ada benda kena buat - nak pergi sembayang la, nak tutup api periuk la haha (bukan bom, tu periuk api)

Banyak lagi soalan atau statement yang ditanya, tapi sebab aku baru lepas makan Maggi pukul 10pm tadi, so otak pon agak lembab macam berokband. So skarang nak pergi tido, esok bangun biol rasa loya sebab makan Maggi.

Hish tak selera aku dengan Maggi ni, tapi dah lapar kan. Kawan² kata Maggi ni makanan ruji student² university. Patot biol otak semua time nak jawab exam haha oops gurau ja, jangan mare~

Anyway, sebelum aku mengarut or mencarut dengan lebih explicit lagi, baiklah aku pergi sign out dulu for tonight.

Adieu!

Oh geramnya

2011-07-19T13:13:00.003+08:00

Aku sekarang ni sangatlaaaaaaaa menyampah dengan certain staff IPS USM (bukan semua okay, ada yang baik gila, some tu perangai macam puaka). Dasar makan gaji buta. Betul sangat la member aku cakap - tak pernah langsung mesra student bila kami call office. Okay, masalah members aku tu biaq depa yang complain sendiri, ni aku nak menghayunkan bapak segala mood kemenyampahan aku kat sini haha

Bila aku call IPS tak pernah langsung nak jawab elok-elok. Aku nak tanya pasal surat acceptance pon nak mengamok. Maybe sebab aku call pukol 12.45 pm time ko lapar nak pegi makan lunch pukol 1.00 pm. Kalau aku ada tertinggal info penting ke bagitau la elok-elok. Contoh tadi staff tu respond dengan nada sinis yang memang nak mintak penampar, "Ni adek ni amek Research Mode ke Coursework?" Bodoh. Mana perginya program Mix-mode dalam soalan sinis ko tu? Bila aku dah jawab, "Bukan, saya amek Mix-mode," boleh pulak dia suruh aku pergi call extension line lain suruh buat inquiries. Habes tu yang ko mula-mula mintak details semua tu apesal? Aku buang masa ko bersiap2 nak pergi lunch, ko nak mengamok. Tapi bila ko buang masa aku okay la pulak kan? Memang aku terasa nak baling pasu sebelah aku neh.

Pastu aku call la extension line satu lagi tu, alahai suara akak, lembot betul. Bajet budi bahasa budaya kita la kan. Bila dok cakap/tanya/explain aku of course lah tak berapa nak dengar, so aku mintak la dia repeat. Tu pun boleh pulak nak bengang dengan aku kan. Suara lembot, tapi perangai mengalahkan syaitonnnn.
Okay lepas tu diorang pon cakap diorang dah hantar surat aku ke rumah. Fine, aku pon letak phone.

Pastu 5 minet kemudian staff yang mula2 tu call aku balek dengan suara yang penoh keikhlasan serta ketulusan sambil berkata, "Oh ini Encik Syahmi ke? Saya ni bla.. bla.. bla.. nak beritahu encik yang surat acceptance encik ada dengan kami lah sebab hari tu ada kawan encik yang nak tolong ambilkan bla bla bla," I was like,
m o t h e r f u c k e r
Tadi time mengamok cakap lain, skarang cakap lain. Banyaklah benda dia belit2 tapi conclusionnya surat aku tu BELOM dihantar ke rumah aku. Bila masa pulak aku ada suruh member aku tolong ambekkan surat tu untuk aku? Nak kelentong la tu surat tak hantar lagi.

Semoga staff2 IPS yang baik tu dinaikkanlah gaji2 mereka.

Semoga staff2 yang cam haram tu tak dapat bonus raya nanti.

Aminnnnn!

Hahaha

2011-07-16T11:26:00.002+08:00

May you rest in peace, Grandmama.

Filled with words

2011-07-15T16:13:00.001+08:00

Okay, whenever I decided to watch horror/thriller films, I always expect those kind of films to be successful in making me shit in my pants with their gory and spooky scenes. But not all humans are equipped with sufficient intelligence, and thus it is very unfortunate indeed that there are several horror films that I have watched in the past, which is not "Scary Movie" by the way, that I seriously regret watching. Instead of shitting in my pants, I'd be raging on how morbidly stupid some scenes in the films really are - even if they are fictions.

"My Bloody Valentine" stupid scenes

There's these two bitches working in the middle of the night at this supermarket somewhere bla bla bla~ Okay right now there were being chased by this killer and STUPIDLY enough they decided not to exist through the main door and went running and shrieking like tramps into this room in which the window was locked from the OUTSIDE. Who in the world would be stupid enough to have a lock the size of my thumb on the outer window of a supermarket's OFFICE? Only in America ♥.

When the two sluts were trapped inside the office and they somehow managed to unlock the window after a long 5 minutes of pure agony, one of them decided to slip their legs through the window. Slipping her legs just took her like, less than a second. After realizing that the killer was not pursuing them from the way he did, then these bitches started to shriek and the bitch inside the office, again, shrieked and told the tramp with her two legs outside to make her way in again and that stupid assholic tramp oddly took like, 5 minutes to get her legs back inside the office. Of course the tramp didn't make it since the killer - almost all psychopathic killers in almost every horror/thriller film is miraculously omnipresent - manage to somehow run outside in less than 5 seconds and grabbed the tramp's legs and pulled her out and stabbed whatever that's inside that tramp. And here is the most stupid part, the bitch inside the office THEN decided to press the alarm, which was INSIDE the office to alert the police.

Then there's this one scene, the same asshole in the office managed to make her way inside this house and lock every possible entrance, except for (surprising enough) the main entrance door which the killer used to get into the house later. And when the asshole saw the killer inside her house she ran towards the kitchen and searched the cabinets only to grab a FRYING PAN instead of those KNIVES or even FORKS that were right on top of the counter. After a failed attempt to knock down the killer by using the pan (no surprise there), the slut decided to make a run for it and leave the house.

And the funny thing was she ran to all of the doors and windows that she had locked and decided to smash a plank-boarded window with her foot INSTEAD of just simply ran through the main entrance hall that the killer used to enter the house in the first place LOL

Inside this abandoned mine, the bitch and her husband were facing the killer. The assholic bitch HAD a GUN in her hands while her husband got nothing as weapons. INSTEAD of asking the slut to shoot the killer which was like 6 feet away, the bigoted husband decided to ramp the killer with his head as if he's the most macho man on earth until he finally was stabbed with a pickaxe by the killer. LOL I laughed my way all to the toilet after watching this useless scene. After stabbing the bitch's husband, the killer then was WALKing away into the darkness and the sad bitch shot 6 times and ultimately none of them hits.

Near the end of the film, the assholic slut was now facing the killer with a gun while the killer had only an axe as his weapon. INSTEAD of shooting the killer with her last bullet, the ASSHOLE-who-shot-6-times-and-missed- decided to shoot at a methane tank behind the killer which is at a further distance, without ever have to think of the risk of it blowing the whole mine and kill all the people in it. After the already stupid scene that pissed me off ended, then another came. The tank basically exploded and the killer was knocked down while pillars of stone basically came down crushing him, so it seemed.

In the end, the killer survived the blast like any other rubbish produced by untalented directors.

If I was at that asshole woman's position, ima just take ma chance and put a bullet through the killer's head.

There are lots and lots of other scenes which were absolutely ridiculous for a normal man to comprehend, but I have no intention of further angering myself reminiscing about all these stupid scenes. ARGH!

*blast a hole in my head*

It Started in the Winter

2011-07-13T16:05:00.010+08:00

And this is exactly the type of music that I love the most sung by someone from 1989 that I do admire :)

It definitely sounds like one of those beautiful ensembles in Disney's fantasy fairy tales.

I am glad I went through my childhood in the 1990s.

This type of song is harmonious, melancholic and soothing - and the thing that create good songs beside the good music is the lyrics. When I listen to this music with eyes closed, my heart is always at peace.

Always.

A great depiction of my heart when I hear this song.
I don't really expect people to understand, even I can't understand myself sometimes.

It started in the winter,
it ended in the fall.
... ♪ ...

Of greens and reds

2011-07-12T22:15:00.001+08:00

The other day when I tried to chew this beef that this chef had prepared, I simply couldn't swallow it because I couldn't chew it right and to me the beef was hard and chewy. I kept chewing until the whatever moisture that the beef had stored in it's molecule was no more and it tasted horrible. Oh no, it was a delicious piece of beef - so they said - and everyone else ate it just fine. They kept shoveling those beef into their mouth and there I was sitting next to them looking how joyously they stuffed their mouth with beef and the only dishes that I could eat there were those vegetables - which surprisingly tasted quite good anyway.

The thing is, I have always had this problem in eating meat that comes from a 4 legged animals - beef or veal, mutton, venison and even rabbit meat. I'd say 95% of my consumption of meat comes from poultries, mainly chicken.

I would love to try and be a vegetarian. Oh not vegan, negative, never, no freaking way! I am definitely not willing to starve myself from the creamy goodness of Italian cheese like Parmesan or Mozzarella.

I learned from Oprah earlier that there are loads of nice dishes that a vegetarian can eat like burritos, risottos and bruschetta. I can't believe vegetables alone can make great dishes! *roll eyes*

The problem here is, Malaysia is nothing like America in terms of food diversity. The scarcity of nice vegetarian food in Malaysia is way beyond description. The only vegetarian dishes or shops that I know are of Chinese style. A picky eater like me can only last eating a certain style of cuisine for a certain period of time.

But then again, will I be willing to resist chicken, in which the texture of the meat is so ever tender and moist and yummy? Oh oh oh! *in dilemma*

Ahh! Life's depressing when tummy isn't satisfied!

And to make things worse, I just made myself hungry in the middle of the night lol

Expecting the Holy Month

2011-07-11T14:35:00.004+08:00

I am looking forward for Ramadan al-Mubarak nanti. Best dapat duduk satu family time berbuka puasa - menghadap makanan-makanan yang gerenti kadang-kadang susah nak jumpa time hari-hari biasa camni - dan ~~melahap makanan macam firaun~~ makan sama-sama sambil bergossip hahaha.

Oush, sungguh best gambaran itu di hati.

2011-07-10T13:35:00.002+08:00

Is it just my blog, or does everyone else's blogs also have some problems with the "followers" section? Mine just won't appear in my screen.

Korean Hit Series

2011-07-10T00:59:00.004+08:00

I thought the series that I like very much was over during my trip to Penang/Ipoh. Okay somehow, rather miraculously, KBS decided to air the final episode of Korean hit series "Boys Over Flower" at 10pm earlier just now, like, just that one episode, so out of the sudden in the middle of July, and of all the time in the world, I managed to catch the opening of the final episode the moment I pressed "3", "9" and "1" on Astro. Talk about good timing!

The final episode was okay. I managed to weep just a little bit, indicating that this series was not the best Korean series I've watched so far - the best being

"Autumn in My Heart" and "Full House"

(note that the main actress in both series was played by the same person).

Man, when I watched Autumn in My Heart, my eyes would completely go out of control. They would just weep and weep and weep until my tear glands ache or until I basically suffocated myself with a huge chunk of snot that I accumulated after half an hour of weeping. Pure agony lol. Full House basically beat the crap out of me with its abundant universal jokes that I can manage to grasp and decipher - you know some jokes in some languages that you don't understand are almost impossible to comprehend, unless if they infuse their incomprehensible verbal jokes with a bit of mild slapsticks like in Full House.

Okay talking about "Boys Over Flowers", one thing that I didn't quite like about the ending is during the scene where Jandi threw herself in the pool to drown in front of the amnesic Junpyo (his insanely rich boyfriend) hoping that he would remember Jandi back. While Jandi was peacefully drowning herself in the pool (lol), F4 members and the rest of the guesses came running towards Junpyo on the other side of the pool who basically just stood there like a moron and stared at the poor girl drowning (scene went into slow motion by the way). And here's the stupid part, while Junpyo is basically taking his time so ever freely to remember the now almost-dead Jandi using his screwed up brain, the rest of the people that were at the pool stood there in front of Junpyo in shock for almost 5 minutes WITHOUT anyone making any attempt to save Jandi as if she was drowning in a pool of acid. After nearly 2 gazillion light-years later, only then Junpyo remembered Jandi and jumped into the pool and saved her - and Jandi miraculously survived being underwater for God knows how long. It left me speculating - either she was a mutant or simply a girl with an extremely unnatural huge lungs, only God really knows lol.

I love the series in general, but there were few scenes that seemed way too absurd, even for TV series.
So there.

Goodnight people! :)

A change of air

2011-07-09T16:44:00.012+08:00

Okay, so I finally decided to change the layout for my blog. I really didn't have much idea on which design should I go for, and in the end I ended up having a very green and earthy design as my blog layout lol.

It looks simple now, yeah I know. But previously my layout had this Big Ben and a double-decker bus as its background, but since there's something wrong with Blogspot, visitors could only see a part of the whole image at the bottom of the page and it basically appeared like some sort of blobs of red, brown and green - the colour of t h r a s h. Coincidence? No, I think that layout is the embodiment of thrash. lol

Well I tried to play with some more advanced layouts, but apparently I got lost in all those html and whatever codes that they ask me to insert around haha. So after 4 hours of miserableness, I decided to make my life easier - use the basic blogger template lol.

Anyway, I'm like, so freaking excited about my current new layout. Kinda knock some senses to me (and hopefully other people as well) that nature is absolutely beautiful, something that is worth preserving.
All things are artificial, for nature is the art of God.
okay enough with the emotion like some frenzy chanting of a hippie bitch lol. Now the only thing that is bugging me is the fact that I can't seem to place the FB "like" button at the bottom of my post, like in my previous layout. And to think that all of these html codes are making me dizzy due to lack of any intelligent knowledge in basic computer codings.

Kleptomaniac

2011-07-07T21:05:00.007+08:00

Okay, so I have been away from home for almost a week and finally I am safe and sound back at home. It was an absolute feeling of relief to finally cure my stir craziness due to the fact that I stayed home for almost 2 months without making any significant social interaction with people that are not my family members.

I breezed around Georgetown by foot with two other people from USM - something that I have never done during my whole time in Penang. It was fun. Anyway, I will not be posting much about my time in Penang, I am quite sure this guy will do something about that in his blog later. He is better than me at describing events in greater details. So if he manage to post something about our time there in Penang, I will definitely link his post here. Oh, and by the way - I didn't manage to say this properly before since I was busy hustling my way into the bus - thanks Zhe Rong for the accommodation and whatnot. Hopefully, I'll be seeing you around next semester!

I really can't wait to go to the Kek Lok Si Temple (do I spell it right? lol) during Chinese New Year next year. Oh oh oh!

C A N ' T W A I T !

In between those time of my stay in Penang, I managed to make my way on the supposedly 2 hours trip to Ipoh to meet some old friends whose monikers are Acab and Byte. I spent a night there, and we did nothing fancy (not in particular), but it was a wonderful trip. I managed to make acquaintance with Acab's grandma lol. She was nice. Oh oh oh thanks Acab for the stay, and for driving me around.

photo: A c a b and B y t e.
Picture stolen from Acab's facebook. I'm photo kleptomaniac lol

So, I hope these two will someday make their way to Penang so that kita boleh beronggeng kat sini plak. *grin*

That's pretty much about my time there, and now I'm just going to blabber about some random miscellaneous things that happened yesterday. I took a taxi from the Sg. Nibong's bus terminal to the airport somewhere at 9 am since waiting for the right bus to go to the airport is pure agony, especially when you're in a hurry. This taxi driver, a friendly Indian uncle, had a nice long chat with me for the entire car trip. After we nearly reach the terminal, he asked me where did I want to go and I said I wanted to go home. Then he asked me again in his very distinct Indian English dialect, "So where do you want to go, China or Korea?" I was like, oh-my-so-goodness-gracious-kembang-dan-perasannya-I! I would love to say to him I am from Korea haha but in the end I told him nothing since I don't want those perasan-ness to simply go away while in the same time not to lie around to people, but heck, I could actually pretend I was a foreign tourist for 5 minutes. Aahh it felt amazing while it lasted~
*diva alert*

In flight, however, I sat next to a very VERY talkative male stranger - a nightmare for flight passengers made reality. He basically kept addressing me "abang" and "abang" and I was actually getting pretty annoyed by that. In one instance, I basically just asked him his age, and he, with no hesitation, said he is 33. I was like, BiiiieeeeTTCCHHHH! Do I look any older than you? With that kind of wrinkles and that kind mustache, I refuse to believe that I look as nearly as old as you. It was a 2 1/2 hours of flight, and he kept chanting and ranting about everything and I think he didn't even stop yapping even when I was sleeping for half an hour because when I was awake he was basically still continuing yapping like brainless monkey.
Holy guacamole!

p/s: Sorry for the absence of photos in this post during my time in Penang. I am being a lazy butthead right now to re-size and edit the photos.

O M J

2011-06-29T22:40:00.001+08:00

Ommjay!

My Masters' application in Master of Arts (Linguistics & English Language minus Literature lol) has finally been accepted!

I hear a celebration coming from the whispers of Mum and Dad!

This is really one of the happiest moments in my life!

Only a 5 minute talk

2011-06-28T22:03:00.011+08:00

M e m o r i e s

are beautiful.

"Every man's memory is his private literature." - Aldous Huxley

I had a chat with a friend from my recent past since my last day as an undergraduate student.

That conversation, which only lasts for about 5 minutes, simply elated my mood for the night.

Yes, it has been THAT long since I last converse with anyone through my cellphone.

That last talk made me reminisce about so many things that I have done together with all those people who were there for me in my ups and downs.

"Memory is a child walking along a seashore. You never can tell what small pebble it will pick up and store away among its treasured things" - Pierce Harris

Oh,
how I miss spending my time with the people that I love the most.

Had a good warming talk : +100 mood

A poem I like~

2011-06-27T22:39:00.004+08:00

The Ugly Duckling

Hatched from an egg
was a darling duckling
But he was different from all his siblings
So they called him the ugly duckling
What he does wrong, he was wondering
Poor, little darling duckling!

Hideously proportioned, the Spanish duck said,
How little duckling’s heart went to shreds
Waves of sadness swamped his heart
He cried and cried and cried out loud
“Oh, why was I different from the lot!”

With feeble wings flapping hard
With faith and hope soaring high
Flying high above the sky
To find what’s in his store of destiny
To find a place where he belonged
A place that he could call home.

Threatened by the hunters
The ugly duckling fled for his life
He needed to get away to survive
Oppressed by the tom cat and the hen
The poor duckling struggled to make his stand
With the perseverance of the patient mountain
He put his all to find his gain.

As despair threatened to take its hold
Suddenly hope came gliding in a miraculous wonder
The ugly duckling then discovered
A beautiful swan he had turned into.
Joy sparkled in his heart,
Not pride but his thankfulness that went out
At last, he had finally found his true destiny.

-Alia and Sakinah, 2008

Muslim Weightlifter fights to compete, Hijabi-style

2011-06-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

A leisure night read :)

2011-06-26T17:40:00.002+08:00

OMG mana pulak aku letak sijil kursus kawen aku neh haaaaaa!!! Tak, tak, aku cari bukan sebab nak kawen dah, tapi saje nak ~~frame and gantung depan rumah~~ simpan dalam fail.

Serious tak sanggup pergi skali lagi weh~! Dgr kabo deme nak tukar program dari 3 hari ke 7 hari punya kursus berserta Qiyamulai skali. omjaayyy! mampos~ Pastu boleh pulak topik2 ceramah bosan gila. Sumpah more than 95% of the time aku dok situ aku buat semberono ja - samada tido, korek hidung, melukis, sembang dgn Alep, berangan and tido lagi. 3 hari pon aku dah tak boleh tahan, lagila 7 hari.

Sumpah gila hahaha

In quite a pain

2011-06-26T09:26:00.002+08:00

Who would have thought eating a frozen bar of Kit Kat chocolate could bend the arch-wire between my upper left side wisdom tooth and my second molar tooth.

And today, the entire half row of my upper teeth hurts.

Braces are the most annoying sets of accessories that I ever have to wear.

Pulau Aman

2011-06-26T00:54:00.001+08:00

Pulau dia tak best, tak happening.

tapi kami yang buat trip tu best.

Aku miss diorang.

Oh geramnya hati la la la~

2011-06-24T23:25:00.001+08:00

Setengah orang bila bawak kereta memang macam tengok beruk bawak. Umur dalam separuh abad, ingat aku wajib respect ko la tu. Kalau dah bukan salah aku, takkan aku nak melutut genggam tangan pakcik mintak ampun pulak. Loser punya pakcik!~

Tadi, mak suruh la pergi beli groceries so aku dengan penuh berat hatinya pun pergi lah kan. Berat hati sebab time tu TV ada cerita best. So aku pun hidopkanlah enjin kereta dan off I went. Aku nak masuk la satu junction neh (one way junction okay) di mana hala aku masuk tu hala yang betul. Lebih kurang 2 meter gitu aku masuk jalan sehala tu tetiba ada sorang pakcik bawak kereta ape ntah datang dari depan. Jalan kecik, dia bajet aku naik basikal la kot. Aku honlah dia suruh pergi gostan kereta dia tu tapi boleh pulak dia hon aku, siap angkat high-beam lagi.

Dah jalan aku, aku honlah balek sebab supermarket kat depan tu ja. nak aku pusing balik masuk junction kat belakang tu buat apa. Dah plak ada kereta kat blakang aku nak masuk. Lagipun, dah jalan kitorang. Setan punya pakcik. Dah dia bengang kan, dia tekan minyak bawak kereta dia laju-laju sebab punyalah tekad keazaman dia nak lalu jugak. Sambil tekan punya tekan minyak tu bila aku tengok kiri aku, aku perasan dia marah la kot dah mata bulat tengok aku, mulut terkumat-kamit macam puaka. Nyaris gila tadi kereta dia bergeser dengan kereta aku.

Pakcik, kalau aku ni kaya la kan, sumpah aku akan rempuh kereta pakcik sekuat hati. Pastu aku akan gostan kereta aku (dan baca bismillah hahaha) dan tekan minyak sekuat hati langgar kereta pakcik once again dengan kegembiraan yang tak terkata. Biar lunyai kereta ko.

Babi.

2011-06-23T21:08:00.002+08:00

Diva Universal's "The Biggest Loser Australia Season 3" translation;

Party pooper = najis parti

TROLOLOLOLO!!~

Pixar has never left my heart

2011-06-23T15:45:00.003+08:00

P.I.X.A.R

For the umpteenth of time, I want to say that I love Pixar's films. I do, I do, I really do. As a matter of fact, my colossal interest in Pixar's animated films is beyond words that I can possibly decipher. Whenever I see or hear the word Pixar - I repeat, WHENEVER - these senses of awe or inspiring feeling engulf me in a heartbeat. I don't mind watching the same film over and over again (and amazingly I'll cry or laugh or piss off over and over again). Pixar films are responsible for the lost of more than 50% of my tears throughout my whole 21 17 years of existence. When I'm watching Pixar films, you bet I won't be entertaining phone calls at all (not that I use cell phones at home anyway) or doing some household chores. Pixar films to a certain extent have saved my life by teaching me prized life values so that I don't become a reckless neurotic emo-freak that always listen to the dark side of my personality.

So Pixar, "You have saved my life, I am eternally grateful" - Squeeze Toy Aliens to Mr. Potato Head (Toy Story 2) trolol~

Huh, who are we fooling, no one can hate films like;

the three Toy Story films

Monster Inc.

Finding Nemo

WALL-E

Ratatouille

It's a Bug's Life

The Incredibles

Cars

It's no surprise that the gross revenue for all these films is higher than an already whopping amount of

USD 300,000,000 (source of reference).
And hey, these are the films that people once sometimes said to me as "kid's films" in the most annoying manner a human brain can possibly imagine. Having to gross hundreds of millions of US dollars, hey, I suppose there are many adults that enjoy watching this kind of films just as much as I do, rather than your pure action or "adult" movies that gross less than a hundred million US dollars which basically show you nothing but violence or/and any other corrupted values. So, pardon me if I prefer watching something constructive rather than something disruptive.

Oh oh oh! I so love watching Pixar films, I really do!

Water Veils

2011-06-23T02:42:00.001+08:00

This is definitely a good read for me.

Still, after all this while of trying to clarify certain misunderstood issues by sharing articles like this online, there are still a few rotten souls that I can see that still behave in the most prejudice and stereotypical manner towards Muslim women.

That shows how ignorant a human being can be. It's sad that my brain cannot function well the way I wanted in terms of explaining certain issues to people who misinterpret other people's faith values since I'm not the best speaker around.

Oh oh look at the clock, it's almost 3 am. I had yet another long day of my 1 month of idling life yesterday, and now I'm going to bed so that I can shorten that long day by sleeping longer haha~

Ma Belle Evangeline

2011-06-22T00:39:00.005+08:00

Just feeling like sharing a song that I really like.

YouTube

and this one is covered by this girl using ukulele (right? sounds and looks like it).

Just lovely.

Mampos aku kena sepak dengan minah neh kalau dia nampak aku embedded video dia dalam blog aku tanpa izin haha nanti ada pulak yang tuduh aku stalker minah neh lol

The duration of the song isn't long, it barely reaches 2 minutes.

And here's the lyric for the song;

Look how she lights up the sky,

Ma Belle Evangeline.

So far above me yet I,

Know her heart belongs to only me.

J'et adore, J'et aime Evangeline,

You're my queen of the night,

So still,

So bright.

That someone as beautiful as she,

Could love someone like me.

Love always finds a way it's true!

And I love you, Evangeline.

Love is beautiful,

Love is wonderful!

Love is everything, do you agree?

Mais' oui!

Look how she lights up the sky,

I love you, Evangeline.

I don't know, I like listening to music or songs like this. It soothes my heart, and when I said "soothes", this type of music REALLY soothes my heart.
Usually when I want to empty my mind, I'll just look through the window while playing soft music like this, or simply turn on my bed lamp and simply lie down on my bed until I lull myself to sleep.

Oooh this is life.

A quote

2011-06-21T15:23:00.002+08:00

Life is a journey, so it's normal to get lost once in a while.

Besides, some truth can only be found when you get lost.

Debunking stereotypes

2011-06-20T12:05:00.006+08:00

A good read.

“Beware! Whoever is cruel and hard on a non-Muslim minority, or curtails their rights, or burdens them with more than they can bear, or takes anything from them against their free will; I (Prophet Muhammad) will complain against the person on the Day of Judgment.” (Sunnan Abu Dawud)

And I love reading the comment section as well. This is what I call an intellectual argument.

I need an antidote!

2011-06-18T22:22:00.003+08:00

Yeay! My Korean coats that I ordered online finally arrived this morning. But UNFORTUNATELY, I was still in the middle of my beauty sleep ~~which I usually take till noon~~ when the postman rang my house bell for 30 minutes earlier this morning (I assume). Grrr.... So having to finally trust this whole online shopping system thingy, I ~~purposely~~ succumbed to my incurable shopaholic side of me and let my hands loose in searching for more cool stuff online and I found some of these clothes online from a Korean boutique.

Oooh so cool! *drools*~

Yeah, if I am an ignorant bastard who thinks that I'm living in Europe, I will buy this coat! Stupid climate, I hate you!

I am short of pants actually so the crave for pants is exceptionally high. Right now, my hunger to shop for pants is insatiable! Grrr...

I SO WANT THIS PANTS! Uberly cool!

Shorts. Oh oh oh, I love shorts! Who doesn't?

OMG! What have I ventured myself into!?

It's frustrating when I have an unlimited amount of things to crave for with only a limited amount of money.

Bill Gates, Oprah, whoever who has a billion or so; come and give me some money!

Oh I think I want to go downstairs and ~~steal~~ grab myself some Cadbury chocolate that my brother bought just now. Nak mengubat hati yang duka hahaha

Of Dreams and Fantasies

2011-06-17T23:22:00.004+08:00

Looking at the job offers really make me think hard about what I want to be in life. Are all these wonderful jobs worth pursuing? I don't know. Sometimes my head just ache so bad I just want to shred all those letters without having to go to all the trouble of choosing the right choice. Oh yes, life is all about choice. You have to think hard about certain things in life, unless if you want to end up in a pile of poo for the rest of your life.

It took me a while to realize that hey, I KNOW what I always want to be.

"I know not what the future holds, but I know who holds the future."

I know the road ahead of me is going to be extremely bumpy, and thus I know I will carry myself slow and steady. It may not be the most lucrative career that I will ever choose, but what more is needed when there is joy and freedom in doing what you love the most.

And hopefully someday when I am really old and perhaps crankier than ever, I will reach the end of my career track feeling content and without remorse. When I am old, I don't want to look back with regret, but to reminisce all the successes that bring me joy and peace.

I hope one day in this nearest future, my dream of becoming a celebrated lecturer, if not a professor, will come true.

And with that being said,

May the dreams of my past be the reality of my future.

Cyber Wars

2011-06-16T01:11:00.014+08:00

Okay, there are a lot of hacking going on with government websites right now.

They can do what they want to do for all I care, but I am praying hard the hackers will not mess around with websites that deal with academic scholarships or student loans. Otherwise, I'll be financially screwed for Masters - due to my stand of not wanting to leech on my parents' moolah anymore. Please Mr Hackers, don't hinder my noble dream of being independent.

A craving to satisfy

2011-06-15T22:04:00.060+08:00

I'm really craving for a piece of cake from Czech right now. Oh drools~

M e d o v y D o r t

My dearest sister, please stack yourself a huge supply of Medovy Dort and bring them home this July/August. Thank you. haha

oh by the way, when I tried to Google a picture of Medovy Dort, I found out that the third picture is mine!

Wicked!

It's a cake from unknown region to a vast majority of people, and to see that my blog appears third so makes feel like someone from Central Europe right now~ :8)

haha suddenly all of you are having the itch to slap my face right now, right? Bear with it, that's what you get occasionally when you visit and read my blog lol~

C l o u d N i n e

2011-06-13T21:33:00.171+08:00

Some bloggers write to attract publicity and literally make profit by using their blog.

I don't.

There are many more important things in the world than collecting temporary fame and status through blog, which I have no freaking idea exactly how a blogger can do such feat - this is my nicest way of saying that I envy those people.

Oh, I like this quote a lot. It kinda make me laugh while still seriously agreeing with what it says;
"Writing is a socially acceptable form of schizophrenia"

I write to unload whatever things that keep me fidgeting all day. It sounds cliche, but it's true when some people say that they write to express their feelings. Yes, I sometimes write to express the feelings that prove to be near difficult to be expressed in real life. It feels good to say something about the world while being able to have that moment to think about what you want to say where in reality, I am completely the opposite. I usually speak without thinking, and that sometimes result in some people getting their feeling hurt. I am not proud of that and I always feel horrible when that happens.

And apparently the irony of having said that is, I can also write whatever things that are inside my head without having to care (to a certain extent of course) what others have to say about my ideas. I mean, receiving encouraging critics is always a good thing, but there are people that like to act so professional (while looking fake in the same time) that will usually critic you in the most demoralizing way possible and that is exactly what I am trying to avoid in reality.

"The secret of happiness is freedom. The secret of freedom is
courage."

You know, honestly speaking, I am not in the business of crushing other people's spirit. That is why I like Martha Stewart when she appears as one of the guest judge for Top Chef 5. She does not destroy the losing contestants' (in the Quickfire Challenge) spirits by saying horrible things about their food. Instead, she encouraged them to perhaps do better in preparing their dish.

Okay... where exactly was I? Oh I get lost in my own thought very easily lol.

I am not the best speaker around. Like many of us, I have problems sometimes in expressing my thoughts or coming up with ideas instantaneously in a conversation, and even more so in channeling one idea to another in a single moment. Oh don't get me wrong, I am nowhere near stupid. The ideas are there on top of my head, but sometimes I just have some problems in reaching those ideas.

Writing makes my mind goes

f r e e and l i b e r a t e d

Writing in my blog is not meant for people to judge, nor for me to publicize my life here. Communication is not really a privilege in this penthouse where I am living since everyone is having their own life. So, writing about random and even the smallest things in my life just feels good, and it gives me peace and solace. This blog is more than just a blog, I treat it like a living entity that is often available to listen to my little rants and being able to unleash whatever burdens I have in my heart and soul is very comforting.

There are many reasons why people write, and some of them might come up with reasons far better than mine that makes a lot more sense.

"The role of a writer is not to say what he can say, but what he is
unable to say."

So yes, this blog is more than just a writing,

it is a collection of thoughts and views of a person about the world that would otherwise prove to be sometimes oppressed in real life.

Wedding Invitation

2011-06-11T11:59:00.053+08:00

Dear friends,

I would like to request your benign presence and blessings on the auspicious occasion of my sister's wedding ceremony.

Syifa Zainal Azhar and Khairul Anam Mansor

Syifa's Reception:

Venue:

Lot 2345, Kg. Chabang Empat, 16210 Tumpat, Kelantan.
(12 km from Kota Bharu)

Date:

1st of September 2011 / 3rd of Syawal 1432

Time:

12.00 p.m.

May the presence and the blessings of our dear friends brighten our humble ceremony, and may they be blessed by Allah S.W.T.

For more information (plus the groom's reception), please refer to the pictures below (click to enlarge);

RVSP: Me

p/s: sek-sek saing ambo hok dok Klate tu, mari deh, jgn x mari haha

Congratulations Kak Pa! :)
Wishing you the best of life that is yet to come. Ameen~

Work

2011-06-10T10:39:00.067+08:00

Another puzzle of my life has been solved. Yay!

Okay here's the thing. I received a few job offers from quite a bunch of companies that most of them I have never actually heard in my entire life. The pays per month are still a bit of big question marks to me, ranging from MYR 2,500 to MYR 3,500. Well, of course being whiny and spoiled me is quite troublesome, the pay range seemed pretty small at first, but then I consulted an old dear friend and I was kind of getting knocked on the head and realized that with a degree, that's the actual range of pay companies are willing to pay, if not lesser. I was like, REALLY?

Well, you start at the bottom, and it's up to you how you want to carve your way up to the top~

Everyday you learn something new, and I so do I! I learn that life is way more difficult than I used to think. Who was I kidding - getting a degree and instantly lay my hand on an executive job with approximately MYR 20,000 monthly salary like my old man does? He had to work for 30 years to climb the ladder of success and I only got, well, zero days of experience in work and I still expect myself to get a job as a chief executive somewhere lol. I was creamed by my own shallow experience about life haha.

But no matter,
I am getting more optimistic about life.
Knowing that certain things are not really up to my expectation are not crushing my spirits in any way possible, in fact I think I am ready to embrace the future which is not really what I had in mind *wuuuuu~ moans* lol.

But seriously, I am quite ready to see how I will fare in this world and see how far I can go.

p/s: working will only happen IF I don't receive my Masters offer letter, which will be kinda sad.
*****
And I feel like sharing this lyric here for I so feel like I am that blackbird.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All you life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free

- Sarah McLachlan

Social prejudice (well, not really)

2011-06-09T13:13:00.070+08:00

Have you ever had things that you really want to have ever since junior high that you never really had to have?

I so freaking want this!

Nintendo DS Lite

+ R4 card + 1G Memory card + warranty = around MYR 700

(either these are the things that are included, or that auntie is trying to leech on my money lol)

or maybe the newer Nintendo DSi which the whole package will basically cost me somewhere around

MYR 800

OM-WTMOFO-Goodness!

My saving is only enough for my travel plans with friends to all sorts of places, and I definitely don't have enough moolah to invest in some random game console ~~which~~ ~~I happen to crave since the dawn of the Nintendo age!!~~. The fact that my full time career is basically doing nothing at home, which unfortunately is legal, doesn't make my account loaded with money either.

Or maybe I should start breaking my piggy bank and grab "a few" MYR notes and fulfill my long time craving! *grin*

I can't believe my little brother said right to my face that all these are cheap considering whatever things that these consoles can do. My head was like, WTF! I then sneaked and grabbed his wallet on the kitchen counter and when I opened it, HOLY GUACAMOLE! 50 Ringgit notes are everywhere! Kids nowadays, once they're rich they'll rub it onto other people's face. I can't believe that my 15 years old brother has more money in his wallet than his 18 *ahem* years old kin!

2011-06-09T00:01:00.012+08:00

Rampage!

I just found out that Toy Story 3 isn't going to be aired this Sunday.

Instead, they're going to show the Avatar film. Oh you know, that movie which basically swept 2 billion ++ dollars? Pttf~ I still think Star Wars is better though.

Happy Moments

2011-06-08T15:03:00.064+08:00

Warning: Pokemon noob alert!

After months of trying to intrude protected websites white receiving an extraordinary amount of spams in return (lol) in search for Pokemon Black/White with little to zero success, I finally manage to grab myself a ~~pirated~~ PC version of Pokemon Black/White last few days.

Never give up in reaching your goal.

LOL

There are various new cool features in this latest Pokemon game franchise - like how the landscape change according to current season. Yes, Earth's 4 seasons. That means I have to wait till late October to catch Pokemon that will only appear in winter. Plus, the graphic is 3D. It's beyond everything that Pokemon Emerald had to offer muahaha~!

Ommjaay Noob!

But, there are lots of features that are not available in the PC version. Besides the fact that my version is sometimes lagging and it truly tests my patience (which apparently short-lived) whenever I play the game, the game's Wi-Fi system seems to be not functioning properly. Grrr how am I suppose to trade my Magikarp with a loser that owns a Kadabra so that it can evolve to Alakazam - one of the most powerful non-legendary Psychic bad-ass ever!? *ngeh ngeh evil grin*

Maybe I should get myself one of those Nintendo Wii one of these days.

Ooh ooh just now I managed to catch Zekrom, one of the two legendary Pokemon mascots in Black/White.

OMYGOSH!

I guess that's enough noob-ing for one day...

It's 3 pm and I really need to slap myself 3 times and go buy myself some lunch!

2011-06-06T13:19:00.002+08:00

I thank my Lord for

I am going to G R A D U A T E soon!

Yay!

*throws confetti*

No, I do not graduate with the best of results - I barely reach 3.5 (thanks to my first year's CGP due to lack of concentration and interest towards the university courses).

Yes, like some people I do wish that I did better in that 3 years time.

Besides the fact that I became pretty much like a sick mutant throughout my 3rd year, I was pretty reckless in my academic life as well. Having done all the past mistakes is like a revelation. It shows that I cannot let my over-confidence gets the best out of me since I more than often use my previous accomplishments as excuses for not wanting to work harder. Hah padan muka haha

But

even if I could manipulate the power of nature (that would be so wicked!) and turn back time, I really won't do such thing. It requires a colossal amount of patience to endure all the thorns as well as the roses throughout the 3 years of my life in USM. Whatever things that happened, my 3 years ended up well and I am content.

I am an avid mood freak, and I learned that giving up or wailing upon my failures aren't going to bring me anywhere. So I am ready to hop into the ~~oblivion and got sucked by a vortex that will rip me to nothing~~ unknown and embrace my future well. Yeah!

What I really wish right now is to do better in my future life and we'll see where life leads me.

So, I'm off for now,
wishing all of you the best in life as well!
:)

p/s: why the heck the application status is still "in review"??? The anticipation of not knowing is pure agony!

Speaking of which

2011-06-04T09:57:00.000+08:00

I still haven't watched X-Men yet! So I guess I have to wait until next week and beg for some moolah from Mum or Dad.

That's how depressing an unemployed post grad can be.

Hungary

2011-06-04T09:32:00.000+08:00

Been home alone for 4 days now. I'm basically starving myself to death because I'm so freaking lazy to drive my way to the restaurants to buy food. I'm basically overspending my money on food on fast food, which basically costs MYR16-18 per meal (times that with three) and voila, the money in my wallet is disappearing faster than a black hole sucking anything.

I think now would be a good time sitting at the porch and wish upon the stars to make me a gazillionnaire, or scavenge my house store for a magic lamp so that the genie can grant me wish of a thousand years of absolute wealth. lol

It's like talking to a brick wall.

2011-06-03T21:40:00.001+08:00

*sigh*

Talking about the world is tough. Talking about politics is tough. I got all these headaches trying to fix things that some people actually expect me to fix. I mean, give me a break. I can't believe that people of their intellect and especially of their age couldn't figure what is right and what is wrong. There is always someone to blame but obviously being Malaysian of any race, ourselves aren't one of them. Well, aren't we all a bunch of geniuses that still live in a developing country. Bravo!

With that being said, I'll just leave all those hassles to themselves. Just to let them know, my life isn't perfect either, so it's unfair for people to expect me to make amends of other people's misjudgments and wrongdoings where in reality everything in my life right now is really not going as I planned. If people want to blame me, a normal citizen, for not wanting to solely pin down the whole corrupted system that basically keeps bothering everyone since the dawn of time, that's really unfair, don't you think so? I am no politician, and certainly am not thinking of ever creating a path towards that kind of career.

I have my fair share in contributing to reform or reshape of whatever that is left to be salvaged in our society, just as much as yours. People have their own way in contributing to the construction of racist-free nation, and so do I. I have my ways in reaching out to people around me regardless of race, and I realized that ranting online about how amazingly corrupt the whole political system really is isn't one of those. It's not working. Maybe to others, they take great pleasure in writing such pieces (I know I had my fair share of satisfaction ranting online about certain stuff in the past), I just don't see the significance of any of those rants. I really don't. Oh if there is, please enlighten me in the most appropriate manner, thank you.

Yes kids if left alone befriends people of all sorts of races. It is the hubris of the completely "matured" adults that draws the lines between people of different background. And I wonder why the hell are those people keep telling me to grow up? I guess they are jealous that they are stuck in that dipshit that they are in, and they're trying to drag me along with them.

If they ever identify themselves to me as adults with those sets of mind, they'd be dreaming that I am dying to be a grown up like them.

It is hard to tell people how your differences - that you are not affiliated with any racist organizations especially when people who talk very mightily about how the Malays are very racist with whatever policies they have established eons ago in the NEP being the exact same people who look and judge some Malays based on the race as well. So I don't get it, who calls who what now?

I have nothing to prove online actually. I can only prove my worth and pride as human with values only through my actions, not my rantings. I basically own several outfits of belonging to different ethnicities (kurta & samfu, I basically tasted all halal food cooked by different people of various races, I hang out with people no matter who they come from, and I am basically planning to go travel to all over the place in world with my friends of multitudes of race - and if that still indicates that I am a racist person, I am definitely out of words - they are indeed assholes.

Hah, I'll restrain myself from putting posts about politics from now onwards. I hope the world is a happy place. We are like millions of lightyears away from any civilizations in the universe (if there are actually other civilizations), and I can't believe the planet Earth that is situated in the middle of the vacuum void is filled with corruption and prejudice. I think each human nowadays needs to get a life.

Oooh ooooohhh!!!

2011-06-02T13:10:00.000+08:00

Ho ooooooohh! Toy Story 3 (my mostest favouritestestestest film of all time - the favoritism I have towards the film trespasses the boundaries of proper English superlatives) is going to be shown on Channel 413 somewhere this June! Shut Up!

I once watched it in the cinema, and you have no idea how much I've refrained myself from crying out loud. Luckily it was dark, people couldn't see how my face looked like when trying to hold those 100% of pure sadness from bursting out. But I did weep (and sob) a bit, but not up to the point where people would notice me doing that.

Now that I'll be watching it at home, you bet I'll groan and moan and wail my heart out loud haha

Wails~

2011-06-01T18:11:00.001+08:00

Does anyone knows how to bank in money to someone else's account? The other person is using account of different bank. My parents are not going to go back AFTER 8 days from now, so I guess I can't really ask them to do it for me.

p/s: Yes, this is my first time doing money transaction ~noob.

Of Coats and Jackets

2011-05-31T21:16:00.001+08:00

Ommjay! I never know that online shopping (window shopping for now) is exhilarating! Recently I found an online page that sells jackets/coats for men. I was not really into this kind of thing (online shopping) before, but thanks the Lord my eyes took a glimpse of photos of their outfits and my goodness, my shopaholic craving suddenly pops out from the farthest reach of my soul after months of being frugal (mind you, my standard of being frugal may be different from others lol).

Ah here I managed to upload some photos (out of hundreds, gila la mau upload semua) of the coats/jackets/sweaters that I find very stylish and modern that I want to buy (no matter what).

#1: Men's Winter Coat

#2: Korean Style thicken Cotton Fashion Zips Embellished

#3: Korean Style Double High Lapel Coat

#4: Wool Collar Side Zipper Coat

#5: Fashion Zips Embellished Cotton Korean Style Coat

I personally like 4 and 5. No. 4 looks absolutely stunning and the fact that it looks Orient (I don't know about you guys, but to me it does) doesn't rule the fact that it is super elegant. No. 5 is classy just as it is beautiful too - the deep brownish grey colour is really appealing. Between these two, I swear to God I don't know which one to buy! Grrr~!

Oh oooh I really can't wait for them to ship the coats to my house. I want to unleash all the frustrations I have at home from doing nothing by going rampant in online shopping.

Mufasa

2011-05-30T21:43:00.001+08:00

I feel so bored right now, my mind hurts. I feel like screaming for no reason in this lonely penthouse. Living in a condominium without having any close friends nearby to hang around is frustrating. It REALLY is frustrating. Honestly, I cannot wait for my family to finally move in to our house in Kelantan where close relatives are literally a stone's throw away from my house. Close friends mostly live in nearby states, or at least, the Peninsular. No don't get me wrong. I really like where I am living at the moment - the people are great, there is a great deal of unity among the people and the place is beautiful - only I just can't find myself to call it as my home. It is not really a home when I have to spend most of my time at home doing nothing.

Can you imagine how awfully frustrating it is to just stay indoor for almost 24/7 straight? It really does feel like jail. Parents are busy working, and I rarely speak or see them at home. The only person that can keep me sane at the time being is my little brother. I am quite reserved when it comes to hanging out with people I don't know very well. It's impossible for me to ask those nice people to hang out. People can only see me hanging out when I am with my close friends - or friends that I think I know very well. The thing is, ALL of my close friends live in Peninsular.

How I yearn to hang out with my fellow friends over the sea. I enjoy spending every bits of my time with those that I find amusing.

I miss most of my TESL friends, most of my ELLS friends, and some old friends from Ipoh too! I wanna meet them real bad!

W H E N

2011-05-30T10:35:00.000+08:00

you reject the offer given to you to work with one of Malaysia's top banks - which is Public Bank -

you will end up becoming a vain snob with a camera like me.

Ho yeah, I actually have pretty much everything at home BUT life! *moans*

Marilah join berhibur sampai blur

2011-05-30T03:02:00.000+08:00

Aku rasalah, Malaysian entertainment industry ~~which are like crap~~ should like, stop all the effort in organizing reality TV show that involves singing like Mentor or AF. I mean, to being with, all the participants don't have great voice. All who participated participated those programs just to seek cheap popularity. Yes, once upon a time I do admit some people are worth joining the music industry like Farhan (AF3 - good classical voice) and Vincent Chong (his voice is pleasant to the ears, but I just don't like his songs), but now I think most of the new voices are basically crap.

Boleh pulak kluar Mpop nama Gula-Gula? Macam haram. Belom lagi aku mention mane2ntah ape kejadah group2 bajet artist yang lain tu.

I mean, come on lah, Malaysia is a country with only so many people - approximately between 25-28 millions only. We are reaching the point where we are almost drained of good voices.

Mentor, AF dan whatever sort of program yg seangkatan dgnnya? Sumpah aku kondem tak tengok.

Tu la, bila dah malas sangat tak tau nak buat apa dekat rumah, masuk lah mana2 pertandingan bangang tu kan? Ops sorry pedas, sapa suruh malas?

Malaysia is, I assume, still a developing country. So why don't you use whatever tiny bits of intelligence of your brain and help develop this country into a better place rather than singing like toads but still receiving compliments from critics in which I have no idea what they were thinking of.

An article for the soul

2011-05-27T18:27:00.001+08:00

An extremely insightful and amazing article written by an anonymous person whom I now admire.

The points that are in the latter half of this article are exactly what I have in mind, only that I really could not express them just as good as this guy.

Cerebral Hemispheres

2011-05-27T18:03:00.002+08:00

I am no neurologist but I do know a thing or two about brain lateralization.

I am deeply fascinated by people who develop extraordinary talents that primarily requires the usage of the right hemisphere of the brain which the majority of us rarely use optimally.

And as for me, I like to think of myself as both right and left sided (although none of the hemispheres has been used to max lol) but after all these years, the environment that has been revolving around me clearly showed that I am more of a right sided. I can draw quite well and I can actually cook too. Cooking is a funny thing to me. House kitchen proves that I am just as good in cooking as I am in baking, just that when it comes to cooking meat or poultry or fish I just lose all enthusiasm (and hope) of cooking. I don't know why, I don't really like the idea of me cutting and chopping things that were once alive and the thought of putting the once red meat into the pan and see them turn brown is repulsive. Oh well I guess I can be a fair vegetarian cook I guess.

I enjoy reading actually, just the things that I like to read of course, not some random reading materials that people force you to read anyway. I've done some rather extensive readings on culinary arts (yes I am no sloth mind you), and I now know why some of the creme-de-la-creme of chefs find it difficult to work as a pastry chef. Reference? Top Chef, if that is good enough. General chefs are right-sided while pastry chefs are left-sided. To you yes it is something insignificant to know, but to me, I felt as if I have solved one of the mysteries that I come across in my life. Here I quote something from the reading material that I have read;

"To cook well is art. It isn't about the recipe it is about the process, the marriage of the foods and flavors, and the care in making a finished product. Movies and reality TV shows (self-inserted) have been made about cooking and it always comes down to passion and emotions."

On the other hand,

"To bake well is science. Baking is about measuring and understanding how one ingredient will relate to and interact with another. It is about following a recipe blindly. It is chemistry."

- The Innkeeper's Daughter

I think I have a rather sensitive and sophisticated taste palate, unlike some other people who basically consume everything in the name of not wanting to waste food who still blindly act as if they have class LOL. Yes in the world of professional culinary arts, you will not be condemned for not finishing your meal. In fact, you are welcomed to throw whatever meal that you find unsatisfying without having the people around you criticizing your action. I guess gluttonous people are not meant for the cooking industry. Youch! Spicy!

It is a comforting thought to imagine myself being a food critic. You don't need to be a successful top 5-star chef to become a professional food critic. Gail Simmons has proven it, so you cannot topple me with your random skeptical thoughts.

Oh my God I am so envious of the people who genetically 'suffered' from Savant Syndrome, and even more so to those who actually survived the odds and 'acquired' this syndrome after recovering from severe concussions. I really am. One moment their brain was completely oblivious to its full potential and suddenly all the talents and skills that their right hemisphere of the brain were unlocked and voila~ they have new talents to show off to people. I mean, I would love to go and hit my head with the spatula everyday, but I really don't like the idea of there being change of me getting a permanent brain damage. Be careful of what you wish for. TOUCH WOOD!

*sigh*

And to know that I am a right-sided is a pretty sad fact considering how this world actually prioritize those whose left side of the brain is the dominant one.

Hetzer

2011-05-25T12:02:00.001+08:00

Missing my partner in crime in bitching like a pair of neurotic freaks.

Saki

Haven't met you for 3 years now. You better hope you have a lot to cuss around because I do!

lol

Gray matter

2011-05-24T14:38:00.000+08:00

I make an awful lot of typos these days in my typing - and usually they happen when I am in a hurry. But still!!!

Since everyone kept posting about their provisional results, so I'm interested to know mine as well. So there I went to the e-learning portal to check my result and spent like an entire eternity there where in reality I have to go and check the healthycampus website to check my result. USM has a lot of websites, yes it does =_=

The longer you stay idle at home doing nothing, the dumber you get.

No kidding.

Smiling isn't always the sweetest thing you can get from a person

2011-05-24T01:23:00.001+08:00

ESPECIALLY if you happen to own and wear some stupid braces across the sets of your teeth.

Here's the anatomy of a human braces to ya'll out there who're bloody lucky enough who don't have to struggle living your life with these straps of expensive irons in your mouth.

and by the way, this is NOT the picture of my mouth lol. That's nasty.

While eating lunch earlier my tongue got caught at the hook in the midst of me trying to get some chewed food off under my upper lip since I have totally forgotten that I wore braces since forever and it practically hurt like hell and I basically cursed at the dining table for a few minutes in front of my parents lol and whenever I cuss around, I cuss with all my verbal might *...*

Oh Ohh Graduation Day is going to be held in September and whenever I wake up everyday I still find these annoying braces in my mouth clinging to my teeth. When I smiled the other day at Suria, my mouth basically shined when I smiled to a friend there and I felt as if I was some sort of mutated freak who was going to petrify those in front of me. Medusa has her hair, I have my teeth. Stupid braces.

Being an avid lover of food of quality, I find that I have to refrain myself from eating a multitude type of food. I can't eat beef or lamb or anything like that. I'm telling you, watching all the chefs in "Top Chef" cooking all those heavenly food out of beef or lamb is pure agony... I can't stuff my face with lots of food at once, otherwise my mouth will be filled with chunks of whatever food that I'm eating. Green veges are the worst enemy that I can have. There's one time where I went to talk to my brother while something green swings to and fro at the top of teeth because and my brother basically made fun of me like I was some sort of jungle clown. I hate it that I have to go rinse my mouth and pluck every single thing that got stuck in between the braces and teeth after every meal.

Once you're out of my life o' braces, I'm going to put you on the tarred road and run over you with a Milo truck that I'll steal somewhere off the road. Hah!

Pyn'ganni

2011-05-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

This 4 month holiday is killing me slowly.

I'm so poor. But not up to the point where I have to beg like my other friends for food like what that insidious reject has said. Parents just don't really give monthly allowance for doing nothing at home. My shopping bug is starting to kick in too! *sigh*

I think my brain is about to shrink to the size of a coin. I don't really have anything intelligent to do at home except for counting how mosquitoes I manage to kill in one night. Yeah! It's so fun fun fun. Isn't there anything beneficial I can do here? ROARGHHH this pisses me off! Okay Syahmi, calm yourself! Meditate... MEDITATE!!!

Sometimes I bore myself. It's true. I just basically love to put myself on the dining chair and look through the window and stare at the sky and start daydreaming about moolah and certain dreams that I have that I know will never ever come true (like flying or having superpower like Iceman or Storm).

I hate Astro. They keep repeating the same programme over and over, and there I was, contemplating to myself thinking why the hell was I having some exceptional amount of deja vus whenever I am at home. But then again, those channels are the ones that basically help me escape the clutches of national broadcasting channels, so no more complain here!

I miss my TESL friends. Aweh! I basically ~~stalk~~ look at their Facebook profiles yesterday and found out how much they've changed!

I rarely look myself in the mirror these days, let alone obsessing myself obnoxiously with a camera! My Facebook and my blog here is getting rusty with the old profile photos. Aha! That's what I do in this 4 month time, taking pictures of myself with pure vanity and post them in FB or blog. Muhohosss~!

I think fast food is like a staple food to me at home. Not like it is a good thing. But since Mum is too busy to cook, I find myself calling for Pizza Hut every 2 or 3 days for their Island Supremes or Hawaiian Supremes. And in between those 2 or 3 days, McDonald awaits my call for their Spicy McChicken or Double Cheeseburger. And the worst part is my weight gain has come to complete stop after those extra 4 kilos I joyously gained a few weeks back.

I find myself giving a lot of excuses for not attending those luncheons that my family have to attend. It's too formal to me. Not that I have anything against lifestyle that prioritize glamourous or formality, they just don't suit me. I have to force my way through all the black suits as if I'm attending someone's funeral at some fancy hotel somewhere. Yes, I do jeered at friends who basically don't have manners in eating or socially and they'll start calling me a control-freak. Maybe I'm a bit sophisticated in nature, but I prefer a simplistic lifestyle. I wish I can just wear T-shirts and some shorts to all those functions that they made me come. Oooh I so don't find talking to a bunch of oldies about marketing and business and financial crisis as interesting.

I hope that I'm not going to spend the rest of my 4 months here at home ranting in my blog about this and that.

OMG if so, that's sad!

HELP!

2011-05-22T21:32:00.002+08:00

Surviving almost a month at home without my propanolols and alprazolams.

ROAR!

Once in while I go into a rampage

2011-05-22T16:11:00.000+08:00

More and more I find myself reading articles written by ex-Malaysians that rudimentary tells how Malaysia is a racist country and a nation that lives on quotas. Yes, I agree on that and I loathe how the system works. But I do find it rather frustrating (and I'm slightly disgusted) by how those people's actions of writing pieces like these when they're the one who chose to leave this country in the first place. No, there's nothing wrong in them for being a part of the "brain drain", it's good for them, it really is. But it's putrefying when reading articles like these from those who do not wish to change the country by forsaking their votes and move someplace else. I mean, you guys keep yapping like monkeys thousands of miles away through online articles about how this country is racist without realizing that you, whether you realize it or not, partially contribute to the loss of support for those who really wish to change this country. It hurts for people who fought for equality that choose (either deliberately or not) to stay in this country and make a change, AN OBVIOUS CHANGE, through our actions, our votes, to read articles like these. I really don't see the points of those people writing those supposedly "brilliant" articles except for to fulfill their need to gossip like a bunch of "beaches". Yeah, you've flourished there, so move on. Live your life, and you're the one who keep telling people not to look back. What exactly are you doing actually through those articles? LOOKING BACK. And I want to ask you one thing, how exactly do you want this country to change if support for change itself keeps fluctuating from time to time? Wow, if this country change, God's willing, only then you want to come back? While we fought hard, you're busy enjoying your life some place else without worries. I'm surprised to see your ignorant and selfish attitude to think that we are preparing a rose garden for you people's return here.

Yeah and suddenly people will start asking me or jeering me "Oh what are the people like me doing to change this country? All talk but no action". Oh please, let me tell you this, common people like me who believe in tolerance between ethnicities have done a whole lot more than the politicians themselves - I actually mingle freely without prejudice with people of every type of race known to me here in Malaysia. Hell yeah it's elementary, but I don't see you guys capable of doing so. I love them all and I'll be gladly to help them all without looking at their skin colour. Yeah it's easy to reply back "yeah right", but who are you to say that? You have never even met me.

From where I stand, it is you people who "all talk but no action".

I realized something. There are two types of anti-government movements - one that fought racism with racism, and the other one is one that fought racism with tolerance. I chose to be in the latter one and I will stand by my choice for the rest of my life.

p/s: it is not the people who are part of the "brain drain" that piss me off for they too want a better future for themselves and I support them 100%, it's just some of their's whining that boils my blood. When you don't have anything else to offer to change the country, we'd really like to see you stop whining online about the condition of this country, UNLESS if you come back and vote in every GE then I'd be more than happy to see you whine. If not, your articles serve no purpose. Like we don't have any other crap to see everyday from prime newspapers/online news.

To-Go List

2011-05-20T21:05:00.000+08:00

Oh... myGod!

Put the controversies revolving around the construction of Burj Khalifa aside, I just want to say that this building really awes me to the core! The picture above is so epic, reminds me of the Orthanc Tower in The Lord of the Rings trilogy, only that this building seems taller than the one in that franchise - something that you hardly see in real life. Oh you know, sometimes when we look at epic films like Star Wars or The Lord of the Ring or The Chronicles of Narnia or Harry Potter, we saw all those beautiful and majestic architectures (which are graphically engineered by the way for those noobs who didn't know about it lol) such as the buildings in Rivendell (LOTR), Hogwart (Harry Potter), that castle in the kingdom of Narnia, and Theed (the capital of Naboo in Star Wars), that we are all envious of for architectures such as those never exist in real life. When I look at the picture above I find myself hallucinating to myself like it's nobody's business and see Burj Khalifa as an "epic" architecture, building that you thought you can only find in fiction - and it seems like Burj Khalifa was being built in a plain somewhere off the charted map of the universe by Sullustians and Mustafarians (these people are from Star Wars, do mind me for being such a nerd). Oh oh oh!~

Oh my Gosh, the best firework show ever! I wish I could have been there though.

And this is picture of Burj Khalifa from a villa somewhere in Dubai. Oh this is just so dreamy!

Oh Life, why can't my family be trillionaires and own a building like Burj Khalifa?